Impossible decision // Jaebeom/Jungkook

12. Can we stay here forever?

After a full day of class, I work at the library for a while before making my way to Amber's and as I arrive there fifteen minutes early because of the bus schedule, I see him waiting outside, pacing around nervously.

"Jaebeom? Why are you here so early?"

"I don't know. I didn't have anything else to do. You look beautiful." Why does he have to be so charming, even in this insecure state? "As we're both early we could talk."

"No."

"Pardon?"

"I don't want to talk now. I have a feeling I'll be all over the place and I just want to see Amber with a pseudo normal attitude."

"Why would you be..." He stops seeing my pleading eyes. "Sure. Let's just go in."

He stays in the living room while Amber and I talk in the studio. Seeing her is such a mood boost. I almost forget the conversation I'm about to have with him later.

"Ina. I have a favour to ask."

"Ask away." I smile.

"To make it more... real, I'd like you to speak on the track."

"What?" I stare at her and at the guy sitting at the console, Henry.

"This line here." She show me where on the track.

"I'm not sure. I wouldn't know how to do it."

"Do you want to give it a try and if you really don't feel it, I won't insist. But I just thought it would make it more impactful."

"I can try."

"Awesome! Come with me."

She shows me the little booth and puts the headphones on my head as I stand in front of the filter shielding the microphone.

"And you just want me to speak it. Do I need to be in sync?"

"Yeah but don't try to sing it. You know when the beat drops, just say the words. We'll see how it sounds and go from there."

I smile awkwardly as she rubs my shoulder.

"Don't stress out. It's just me... and Henry." Yeah it's just Amber. One of my heroes. Someone I don't want to disappoint. No pressure.

She leaves and closes the door behind me. It's a bit claustrophobic in here. Just breathe. I hear the music in the head phones and her voice in the pre-chorus. Relax Ina. Remember how you felt with Jiwon. Beat drop. That's my cue.

"Why do I not miss you?"

I look through the glass and she signs a thumbs up. What does that mean? Is that it? I wait for the music to stop.

"Do you want another take?"

"No. It was perfect."

She signs for me to come back. I place the headphones on the stand and come back in the studio where she speaks to the engineer.

"Are you sure?" I ask her again.

"Listen I am as shocked as you are. That was exactly how I heard it when I was recording." After he spends a few seconds editing the track, we listen to that part and even though I hate hearing the sound of my voice, I have to admit that it does add something to the song.

"That's perfect." Henry says nodding at me.

"See! I knew it." She taps on his shoulder. "Do you mind giving us a minute Henry?"

"Sure." He leaves the room.

"Ina, listen I have to apologise."

"What did you do?"