Impossible decision // Jaebeom/Jungkook

13. You're too beautiful to miss out the full view *****

The next few weeks go quickly. I learn more about Jaebeom as we go on dates and spent time at my place, often forgetting about the threat hovering above us. We caved in, couldn't resist each other and act like a normal couple in public, holding hands and kissing each other.

I don't think about Jungkook as much. He has not been in touch and I feel that I should not try to reach out either, probably scared that my feelings for him could resurface when I have a good thing going with Jaebeom, although they are still here. I can feel them overwhelming me when I think about him.

Tonight, my man has invited me to his place for dinner. He's cooking. Apparently he's a great cook, when he can be bothered. I get there early so I can help out.

"Hey gorgeous." He leans in and kisses me sweetly on his doorstep.

"Hey handsome." I smile at the thought that this wonderful man is mine.

"Come in. Oh? Did you bring something?" He takes the bag off of my hands and snoops in. "Wine. Perfect."

His place is amazing. Industrial look with metal and wooden features. Black leather sofas. Cosy lighting.

"Did you start without me?"

"Just a bit of prep. Come here." He pulls me and passes an apron over my head then stares at me as I tie it behind my back.

"What?" I smile, wrapping my arms around his waist.

"Your eyes are actually mostly green." I hold my breath, unexpectedly reminded of Jungkook's full analysis on the colour of my eyes on that last day. I feel sad. I hope he's okay. "Ina? Are you okay?" I faint a smile.

"Yes!"

"Are you sure?"

I really want this to work and I feel that I need to be completely honest with him.

"Jaebeom can I talk to you about something?"

"Something that's bothering you?"

"Yes."

"Did I do something?"

"No! Not at all. Something about me."

"Of course. You can always talk to me baby." His soft eyes are reassuring but I'm still scared to open up. I don't want to hurt his feelings too. I don't want him to misunderstand.

"Do you remember Jungkook?" Hi eyes become darker and his jaw clenches.

"I do."

"He fixed my computer a few weeks ago and we became friends, good friends."

"The IT hotshot. The one who liked you?" He asks unimpressed.

How am I gonna say this and how much am I going to share?

"We ended up being... involved." He waits for me to elaborate but puts distance between us, looking down, rubbing his face and sighs.

"Did you have feelings for him?" He asks reluctantly.

"Not to start with, but it crept up on me."

"And him?"

"Same... I think."

"Why are you telling me this?" He's really serious and a hint of anger surfaces.

"Jaebeom, I need to tell you because I feel guilty." He scoffs.

"Because you still have feelings for him?" This question somehow takes me by surprise.

"That, I don't really know. We've not seen each other or kept in touch. We both agreed to stop everything."