Impossible decision // Jaebeom/Jungkook

17. Morning gorgeous

"Jungkook. I can't." I push away. "I can't cheat on Jaebeom. It's not me." He sighs deflated. "You're... so... annoying!" I burst.

"What?" He asks defensively.

"You say you miss me. I push you away and you accept it. You save my life. You nearly die! You ask me to kiss you. You want to let me go. You pull me in another kiss!!!" I am so worked up.

His face is apologetic.

"I... change my mind. You make me change my mind."

"Oh! So it's my fault?" I sit back down on the chair sighing, my flustered state seemingly amusing him. "And you think this is funny? It's not funny to me. I'm so tired." Worn out, I drop my face over my hands sitting on the side of the bed, forgetting my cast and smack my forehead. "Ouch!" He laughs, wincing straight away. I want to tell him off for mocking me but his pained face softens me. "Look at us." I say rubbing my forehead.

"We are a pair."

"Yes we are." I smile at him fondly as he takes my hand and rubs it softly.

"I need to go home. It's late."

"Could you go to my place?"

"Pardon?"

"Can you pick up a few things for me? Like my toothbrush, shower stuff, underwear. Where's my bag?"

"Here." I lift it up.

"My keys are there. The main door code is 0129."

"Okay."

"Maybe you should stay there, it might be safer." He makes a point.

"Okay. I'll go to my place first and then yours. I'll be back in the morning."

"It's 1am so do you mean later?"

"Alright smarty pants!"

Grabbing my things, I kiss his temple and leave him. I can leave him right? He's safe now. Why do I feel scared to leave him? He's fine. There's an officer outside his door.

After getting a lift from the police to my place, I pick up a few things and get accompanied to his. They leave. I should be safe yet I still feel on edge.

I enter his place. It feels so weird being here without him. I look towards his kitchen and imagine seeing his back facing me on that day. Sadness takes over. If I hadn't said... If he... what's done is done. I'm happy with Jaebeom. I drop my stuff in his room, get undressed and rummage through his kitchen to find a plastic bag. Damn I hate having a cast. I put the bag over it, an elastic band to seal it and I head to the shower. I soak in there for a while, every second of tonight going through my mind. I still can't believe all this just happened. Once out and dry, I look through his products and use some of them. It smells of him. It soothes me. Once done, I go back to his bedroom and slip into his hoodie. I mean he probably has a hundred, but the one I wore that first night is the first one on the rack. After making myself a cup of tea, I sit down on his sofa and video call Jaebeom.

"Hey. Sorry it's late."

"It's fine. Are you going home?"

"I left the hospital already." He looks behind me confused.

"You're not at home."

"I'm staying at his place. He thought it would be safer with Sheona still running free. She probably doesn't know where he lives. She'll expect me at my place or yours."

I can tell he's not happy about it but says nothing. He knows it's probably safer this way.

"Fine. You need some rest. Shall I pick you up tomorrow?"