Secrets 2

Chapter 38

Allison's POV

I feel bad for the way I've been acting about this. I mean it is a little much but I'll live with it. I know I go along with it most of the time anyway. I know he only acts like this because of his past. I know he used to get whatever he wanted when he wanted. I can't take this out on him now. I knew what I was getting into. We've talk about all of it. I agreed to take all this when we got engaged. That was something that we both wanted. I felt him finally wrap his arms back around me. I hope that he's not upset with me. I should have known that his past had something to do with this. I know so much has happened before to him. He's so broken. I wish I could just fix it all for him. I want to try at least. I kissed his cheek then down to his neck. I mumbled, "I'm so so sorry, babe. I should be the one apologizing not you."

He sighed, tightening his arms around me. He kissed the top of my head, "It's fine, love."

I shook my head, "No, it's not. I know about your past and I should have known. I shouldn't have taken it out on you. You don't deserve that."

"Allison, it's really fine. My past is always going to be apart of me and I'm sorry that you have to deal with that."

I pulled my face away from his neck. I pecked his lips, "I know. You told me about your past and I'm still here. You proposed to me and I said yes. When I stayed with you then said yes when you proposed to me, I agreed to stay with you and deal with your past with you. Not because I have to but because I love you and I'm not going anywhere."

He moved on of his hands up, cupping my cheek. He looked at me, not saying anything. Did I say something wrong? Before I could say anything he pressed his lips against mine. They were just as gentle against mine as they were earlier this morning. He pulled away sooner than I wanted him to. He leaned his head against mine, "I can't believe you're with me."

"Babe..."

He stopped me by pecking my lips, "I know. I don't need to be thinking like that. I just can't believe after the things I've done you're still here. I feel very lucky about that. Any other girl would have been gone by now."

I moved my hand up, moving some of his hair away from his face, "I'm not like any other girl."

He smiled, "That's very true."

He pecked my lips, "Can we enjoy that rest of our day here?"

I nodded, "We deserve it."

He kissed my cheek as I got off of him. I grabbed his hand, intertwining our fingers. He squeezed my hand, "Where are you going, love?"

"I was thinking we could go back into the bathroom and I can enjoy the rest of the day in your arms."

He shook his head, "We shouldn't do anything today, love. Like you said earlier we already made love this morning."

I smiled, shaking my head, "I believe I said sex but I wasn't wanting to do any of that. I just want to lay in you arms and watch some movies, enjoying being with you."

He smiled, getting up from the chair. He followed me into the bedroom here. I let go of his hand, laying down on the bed. He grabbed the remote before laying down next to me. I moved over to him, laying my head down on his chest. I felt him wrap his arm around me, holding me close to him. I would rather be here with him than anywhere else. I just want to be open with him like this all the time. It sucks having to go home and not being able to be like this all the time. I should be used to it and I am. It just gets hard at times.

It's been nice being away from home but it was kind of nice to go back home. It's where everything of ours is. I do like the idea of us moving away after I graduate. I feel like things will be easier on us then.