Tainted Teardrops [Book no.1- Dhatins of 3030 Indonesia] ✔

23 | contradiction

~ Amity's POV~

I never contradict myself, especially when I've committed myself to this type of plan.

Ahead of me, there's a wide, open space, dedicated just for the likes of the cattle that roam past me. There's a white picket fence that surrounds the cattle and me, causing the one ferocious beast to dive headfirst into the fence, then getting pricked in the process.

I've made sure to line a row of tall cactus in front of the fence, so when the boar comes at me, I'll be able to save myself some time before it comes striking its steel horns straight at my frail body.

It's all just a part of my military training, after all. With the pressure, and without the time to recollect my thoughts and my emotions, I'm able to build up my resistance.

Then, there's a slight pause, after the boar crashes straight into the cactus. Looking at me with its beady eyes, bloodshot. Staring at me with wild desire, I can almost see in this boar of that man, Kersen Lioek. And, when flashes of my memory of those mortifying moments with that monster start to flow through my mind, instantly, I look away. I don't want to be associated with that kind of evil. I'd rather repress myself from the horrors of my childhood.

Deciding to join the Blitzkreig division based on a vague, impromptu decision was a very terrible idea. But, deep inside, I know the true reason for this desire to be human. Not only is it to find Dhalia and save Luka and her from this terrible monstrous world I live in, but, it's for an even more obscure reason: vengeance.

I want more than anything to rid of these dhatins who took everything away from me, my family, my adopted mother, and even myself. I've started to lose myself to the monster within me, and though It is no longer intact within my mind, and is no longer dictating my actions, I now realize.

I must destroy every ounce of the monster in me, for good.

The realization hits me hard, like being slapped in the face with a plank of wood. There's a feeling that like a shroud of mist that covers up my true heartless feelings, that seems to linger on the madness that resounds within me. I don't think that I'm a heartless person, after all, I've saved two young children who would've died, or even at a direr, gruesome case; been eaten alive.

The boar himself gains his consciousness, and when he starts to lounge himself towards my direction, I take a red cloth and guide him into his cage.

Be prepared monsters, cause I, Amity Nugraha has arrived, and I'm not backing out without a fight!

" How did I do?" I ask the boar in its cage, still knocked out from the blow.

" Ha! I bet you haven't seen the best of me! And... I still got fifty more of you guys to round up," I look around, as I mutter under my breath, " oh boy, now that's a herd!"

Henrik really had to release all forty-nine of the boars at once.

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A few hours after I've rounded up the rest of the boars, and locked their cages, I was done with the first part of the training.

Captain Relich, an elderly man who was hired by the RVOB to train its military, the Blitzkreig division, goes up to where I'm standing, in the middle of a grass field. I'm clearly two hours ahead of everyone else that's supposed to arrive, which is actually quite odd.

I didn't imagine I'd finish the first part of training so quickly.

" Amity, very nice to make your acquaintance. I see you've arrived at Sector-31, the military base of the Blitzkreig army number two, I presume?" He says, obviously struck by my timely arrival to the Southern fragment of Semarang, being that I was to arrive by jet. He offers a white-gloved hand to mine, which I take halfheartedly.