Clumsy with a hint of Rupok

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"Keane... please" hinabol ko si Keane at hinawakan ang kamay niya. "Keane, ano naman kung alam ko?"

He looked at me with disbelief, "Ano naman? You don't think na hindi ko iisiping sinagot mo lang ako kasi sa sakit ko sa puso? Naawa ka lang ba?".

"Keane, sinagot kita kasi mahal kita" naiiyak na ako kasi hindi ko alam kung ano mangyayari sa'min kapag hindi siya naniwala.

He sighed at pinagpatuloy ang paglalakad nang mabilis. Hinabol ko ulit siya, hindi ako papayag na ganito kami matatapos.

"Wala ka bang tiwala sa'kin?" tumutulo na ang mga luha ko.

"How can I trust you?", I've never seen him this angry. Nagsisisi na ako pero mas magsisisi ako if hindi ko nalaman na may sakit siya sa puso.

"Keane.... please. Don't leave me. Hindi ko sinabi sa'yo because I was afraid na lalayo ka", it started raining na parang sumasabay ang langit sa nararamdaman ko.

"Para hindi ako lumayo? What do you think is happening right now?", inalis na niya ang kamay kong nakahawak sa braso niya.

"Ace, you should've told me", his eyes were full of tears at kaunti nalang ay babagsak na lahat ng yun.

"I'm sorry" nagmakaawa ako sakanya. If only I can turn back time.

"Keane, there's still time, right? I can... I can prove to you na sinagot kita kasi I love you", I explained to him but he looked at me as if I was already a stranger to him. Tingin palang niya, bumuhos na ang mga luha ko.

"Keane, answer me. I can't let you go.. not anymore please" I held both of his hands. He didn't look at me the same way. I knew everything was over. I blew it up... totally blew it up.

I kneeled and hoped that he would take me back pero... when I looked up to face him. He collapsed.

I was panicking but immediately thought na tawagan ang 911 but I didn't have my phone with me. I took out his phone from his pocket and called 911.

I didn't have the patience to wait so I tried my best to carry him to the hospital.

"Keane.. please.. bear with me", I said while holding back my tears. I have to be strong.

I was shocked when I heard Maple's voice. "Hey!! Ano nangyari?"

"I'll explain later. Maple, please help me", sabi ko kay Maple habang nahihirapan na. Hindi ako papayag na mawala si Keane. Ang dami kong pagkukulang.

We went to the nearest hospital and I also called Keane's parents. I was waiting for the doctor.

I will not forgive myself if Keane died. It was too much for his heart to handle and it's all my fault.

As soon as the door opened, I stood up. "Tita Olivia, is he okay?", I asked.

"He's stable for now but he needs a heart transplant as soon as possible", I sighed in relief.

Maple went in to see him but I'm too full of guilt to face him. I wanted to do something for him to prove how much I love him. Gusto kong bumawi. I walked around and saw something that can lessen my guilt even if it may be impossible na magamit.

I went inside his room but he was still sleeping. I felt like crying pero syempre nahihiya na ako.

"Um.. Ace, do you mind telling me about what happened?", Tita Joanne asked.

I was scared that maybe if I told them, they wouldn't trust me anymore.

"Tita, nalaman ng coach po nila na hindi lang po simpleng hika yung kay Keane and... he found out na alam ko yung sa sakit niya sa puso", I explained briefly.