✮-loop-✮ // DNF

~12

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Also just ignore the anime :]

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Tears flashing through his face. He had never felt like this before. His whole world and life was slowly disappearing every blink he took. Muffled voices behind his thoughts.

"I DONT NEED YOU AND NEVER WILL!" he heard. More tears running down his face. Completely, left alone. Knowing exactly who that was, he heard a massive door slam. He jumped at the feeling and cried even more. 

Loosing someone you love so much wasn't easy. And it never will be. It feels like the whole universe is falling apart, planet by planet. It takes away all of your happiness and adds fear onto it. Your love will always be the other part of you. Even if you would lose a crumb of them, it would still hurt. Every feeling good or bad with them was still cherishing. Every single moment was to be cherished and be praised.

Clay sat there letting tears roll down his face and dropping onto his shirt. He felt like a whole ocean was invading him. His shirt was soaked in his salty tears. 

Blink, by blink. Thought, by thought. It had gotten worse. Nothing could fix this. He ran out of the house into a random place. An 'enchanted' forest he had called it. Beautiful different coloured trees. Pink, green, red and blue. Whatever he imagined would be there, except one thing. George.

The clouds were spitting drops of rain. It was getting heavier and harder to see. Clay could hear something or someone. He ran and ran until he could find it.

"CLAY I NEVER LIKED YOU AND NEVER WILL. WHY WOULD U THINK THAT!" Clay turned around and saw George. But it didn't feel like him. It just didn't feel right. Clay had let out even more tears. The small tear drops has soon turned into streams of sobs. The rain followed the same pattern with his tears. 

He felt a ton of water drop down onto him.

He had woken up, in complete wetness and heavy breathing. At that moment, he wasn't angry, he knew it was time to forget about George and start new. The feeling of what the could cause rushed through Clay's head.

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He doesn't even care why am I so bothered!- Clay thought to himself.

Sitting on the grass soaked. He blinked and ended up back on earth. He looked around and saw everyone standing with either buckets of water and bottles. They all stood there laughing at him.

"Wow thanks! What am I even going to wear now." Clay rolled his eyes and coughed.

"You should've woken up the first time." Tommy laughed. Clay had enough. He stood up and punched him in the stomach. Walking away, he left Tommy in pain and everyone else surrounding him. He looked back and made eye contact with George.  He could tell that George was disappointed. 

George gave Clay a mad expression and looked away.

He ran to the car with small tears down his face. (Yall pls pretend like they aint in a limousine anymore istg.)He opened the car and sat down aggressively. He started smacking the steering wheel and screaming his pain out.

"WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKING FORGET ABOUT HIM!" He screamed with all of his anger out. Clay heard small rusting in the back. Clay had looked back and saw Niki laying in the back. She had now woken up fully from Clay's smacking and screaming.

"Clay what happened. Forget about who?" Niki asked trying to make him calm down. He was stressed, and just not it.

"It's none of your business forget about it!" Clay yelled at her. Niki let out a sign and walked out of the car. He had messed up everything. He had to try and fix it, but how?

Minutes of sitting thinking deeply and some screaming. He was sitting there hitting his hands onto his face in regret. 

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"This is what I mean, something has gotten into him." Niki explained to everyone who was standing a bit far away from Clay's car. They could still see and hear what he was doing.

"We should just leave it. I mean he will tell us when he needs to." Darryl answered. Everyone just nodded and walked closer to the car. 

George's heart was beating fast. He didn't know if it was in a good or bad way. He didn't even know anything.

Did Clay hate him? 
Did he ruin everything.
I mean I just helped Tommy right?

They all sat in the car acting like nothing had happened before. Skeppy broke the silence and turned on some music. Clay was driving aggressively. Every breath he took he sped up.

"Clay slow down." Tubbo said worried.

"Shut up." Clay knew he was going ahead of himself. He listened to Tubbo and slowed down a bit. He wanted to let out all of his anger and feelings but couldn't. Almost like it was glued to him and would never come out to anyone else except himself.

Minutes of driving, which felt like hours. They had arrived at the house. The first person to go inside was obviously Clay. Every step he took, he felt like apart of him was falling off. He had somehow already got into his room and in his bed. 

Nothing else was on his head except, George, thoughts and just George. Clay knew it would be the hardest thing in his life to get over George. He doesn't want to, but he knows he has to because it will never happen.

Hours of laying in his room with some dry tears on his face, he left him room and stumbled downstairs. He looked over to the living room and everyone was sitting together talking and giggling. They all gave Clay a look and watched him walk out of the house.

Clay wanted to get out and lose his thoughts on the way. He had driven off to the nearest café. Warm feelings always made him better. He walked in frowning. Still thoughts in his head, he sat down on the table and scanned through the menu. Someone walked over to his table.

"Hello what could I get for you today." A sweet voice was said. Clay looked up and saw a beautiful girl standing in front of him. They both adored each other for a second until Clay said something. He knew this was his chance.

"I'll have your number." Clay smiled. He wasn't comfortable about this but it was the only way he could get over George. Someone who probably hates him now. The lady wrote down her number and handed it to Clay.

"I'm Aria." She smiled. Clay introduced himself and they started talking. Laughing and talking went past. Clay had completely forgotten about everything when with Aria. Hours passed talking.

"Its already 11:57pm we should get home." Aria told Clay.

"You can come to mine since it's late and dark." Clay smiled and Aria nodded. The car drive wasn't long since they were talking. 

They arrived at the massive place.

"Also I live with some other people so ignore them if so." Clay told Aria. They both went out of the car and Clay walked through the door with Aria behind him. He looked over to the living room to find everyone still in the same place as before. Everyone's eyes had went onto Aria and Clay.

One pair of eyes caught Clay's attention. It was George.