✮-loop-✮ // DNF

~21

Words: 892
TW: Mentions of s*icide
(Sorry for the shorter chapter but hope you enjoy. Also this took me a lot of time so if you read this I want to thank you)

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Everything was so messed up, he was messed up. He thought about confessing his feelings to Clay as well. It's like he was ever going to do it in the first place. George took a blanket and covered himself in it. He took a deep breath and started writing.

Hi everyone I want to tell you guys something. Don't be mad :)

I guess this is the goodbye. 
Everything you all did for me I appreciate so much you dont even understand.
You all make me happier than ever its so hard to write

I have a few things to say to a few people.

First of to everyone. 

I love every single one of you with every piece of my heart

Your all like family to me :)

Never forget that no matter what happens any time now.

Niki, thank you honestly for helping me with my feelings and emotions.

Karl, Your so sweet dont forget that

Tommy, Your stupid but thank you

Tubbo, Another sweet heart that deserves a lot

Darryl, You have also helped me a lot thank you again

Skeppy, Although we didn't talk much ill miss you as well

Wilbur, Like a dad to me thanks

Alex, Your really funny your like family

Sapnap, Again your literally like family to me a brother, thank you

And Clay, well.

Here goes my whole life.

Your special to me your someone I would stay up all night for.  The one who I would never be tired of talking to, you always entertain me in every single way. Your random hugs, cuddling anything. Your the one who crosses my mind every time of the day. But I dont complain. Your the one who can make me smile without even trying honestly it amazes me as well. Whenever I see you my mood changes from sad to the happiest person I could be. Bring my mood down without the intention to and affect my emotions with every action of yours. I honestly cant explain in words how much you mean to me. Your my other half. The other half of my life. It all adds up to you. Your the one I'm afraid of loosing anytime. Your also the person I want to keep in my life. But sadly I can't. I'm so sorry. I love you so much Clay words can't describe. Every memory we experienced good or bad no matter what I enjoyed it. Every moment with you I would enjoy. As long as your there It's happy. My every waking moment, you entice my thoughts with sweet words and deeds. Hearing your voice brings peaceful comfort and a smile to my face at mere the thought of you. My heart will only beat for you Clay. When our eyes locked for the first time, I knew that I was in love. You rendered me breathless. I was speechless because of your beauty and everything about you. Now with the same intense gaze, passionate warmth envelop my heart. You are so sweet and caring. Like I said words cant describe. As each moment passes by, I feel myself more drawn to you. I guess that's good but sometimes it isn't. The memories we have shared thus far encompass, I hoped we would create more but I ruined it. Again I'm so very sorry. My heart soars blissfully when I'm with you. In your absence, I close my eyes and dream of your close embrace. Our fingers interlocked forever and your soft lips against mine. Everything about you makes my breath be taken away. Your everything I want Clay. All I want. Body, mind, heart and soul, with you I am truly myself. You give me so many reason to smile and keep being who I am. My life has never been happier than this until I met you. You completely finished my life. But I ended it. Honestly, Its crazy how much love can ruin someone. Your a blessing to me and always will be. I now hand over all of my happiness and all the memories I had to you and everyone else. Like I said I'm sorry. You might care or not but whatever I'm gone. I love you Clay I would do anything for you I really would. Well this was me expressing my feelings for you, hopefully you appreciate this. I wish I didn't have to pretend that I didn't love you. But now I dont have to anymore. I'm free. I can do whatever I want without fearing it. All thanks to you. I love you Clay goodbye. 

George <3

PS: I love stargazing.

He was breathless. So tired. Some of his tears had fallen onto the paper causing the paper to rip a bit. George stood up and placed the piece of paper into a drawer. It was covered both sides in writing. It made George feel proud but he knew he was a disappointment. His eyes were completely blurry from the tears forming in his eyes. Tomorrow. Tomorrow will be the day it happens. The day his life ends in complete misery.

As they all say, it all ends one day.