Meant To Be •KSJ• ✔️

Twenty Four

I could hear Charlotte in the other room, still on the phone. I must have reminded her a hundred times before today that I had a wedding planner who was fully capable of handing things, but there was no stopping her once she'd settled on something. She'd even gotten ahold of my planner to ask what she could help with.

All Charlotte wanted to do was help, and I love her for it.

Meanwhile, I'd moved over to the vanity to start getting myself together. I looked down at the box and the note that Jin had dropped off earlier in the day. Sliding the note out of the envelope, I read it again, catching a whiff of his cologne that lingered on the paper.

I could see Jin sitting down to write it, and I knew him well enough to know that this wasn't the first draft. I'd see him looking at his phone, deep in thought, and he would type and delete, over and over again. I'd ask him what he was working on and he would only smirk and shrug, followed by a 'nothing.' At the time, I'd assumed it was a song, but now it made sense. It was this note, and he wouldn't rest until he felt it was perfect.

I tucked the note away and opened the box, sighing at the sight of the earrings. Of course he would choose something like this, something that I can wear again. They were beautiful but not over the top, perfect for both a casual night out and a wedding day. He probably spent weeks searching for the perfect pair.

I racked my brain for days trying to think of what his wedding gift should be. I finally decided on a watch. He already has so many, but he loves and wears them all. The one that I chose is nowhere near as fancy and sparkly as some of his others, but I hoped that he would like it anyway.

I sat down and brought the small box closer. I secured each earring and looked at myself in the mirror, and the corner of my mouth curled up in a grin. They were beautiful, and I couldn't wait to see him and thank him.

I just couldn't wait to see him.

I continued to look at myself, my eyes searching my own face. I looked past the hair and makeup to look at my true self, and I could honestly say that I wasn't the same Abby that I was the day I met Jin.

No, I didn't change myself for him. I would never change myself for anyone. But as cliché as it sounds, he helped me become a better version of myself. I don't over analyze nearly as much as I used to. I mean, I still do, but not as often, and I have our relationship to thank for that.

Charlotte had asked me one day how I can be so over analytical about mundane things yet never second guess diving head-first into a relationship, let alone with a world-famous idol. She threw me off guard a bit but she was right. Yes, I'd have my moments of questioning why Jin would want to be with someone like me, someone whose life wasn't anything close to resembling his. But I never questioned whether or not I wanted to be with him, and I definitely wasn't with him because of his lifestyle, nor was he with me because of mine...yet we both were?

I'd been searching for a sense of excitement in my life before meeting Jin, and then he showed up out of nowhere. Yet I'd never used him for the excitement that he had to offer. I simply wanted him, the amazing man that he is, and the excitement came naturally because he alone was the excitement that I'd been hoping to find all along. I just never anticipated it coming in the form of a relationship, especially since a relationship was the last thing that I was looking for.

Jin has helped me become a better version of myself.

And Jin would tell me how I am the sense of normalcy that he hasn't been able to have since he was younger. He wanted someone that he could come home to who didn't care about the stage persona, someone who would be there during both the good and bad, the laughter and the tears. He loves his job and would never change anything about it, but he also wanted someone to curl up on the couch with at the end of the day.