It's Only The Beginning {1}

† Eighteen †

I watch the battle, sighing unhappily.

This is stupid. Nobody should be fighting this battle.

My shoulders stiffen as I run back into the war, killing more and more people along the way.

I never wanted to end up like this.

Like a monster.

But I did and I can't blame anyone but myself.

I find Octavia fighting people on the ground and my eyes widen in fear. I can't lose her.

I pull her aside after they're all dead and whisper words to her.

"I don't feel good about this, O. If I am to fall tonight, I need you to take care of the wolves" I quickly get out.

"What? You're going to be fine" she states, holding onto my wrist tightly.

"You don't know that, Octavia. Just, please, promise me" I beg and she nods.

"I promise" those two words were enough to ease my unneeded stress and I smile I little bit before running back into the action.

I make my way to the center of the battle and hear a familiar growl.

Bears growl.

I freeze in my place, a trikru taking advantage of that and getting a swipe at my arm.

I hiss in pain and turn to him. I fight with him until my sword pierces his heart and I spin around to see Bear tear apart one of the teens.

My face falls at his betrayal, once again and I hear the click of a gun.

"The mutt needs to die" Bellamys deep voice rings through the air.

It's like everything was in slow motion.

He raised the gun at Bear, his finger grazing the trigger and I make my decision.

The innocence that used to swarm Bears eyes was gone.

He looked the same.

But he looked hollow.

Like he didn't know what he was fighting for.

But....

He's still my Bear.

He's still the same wolf who would lay with me when I was hurt or sad.

He would run around with me when his siblings didn't want to.

He would splash me with water and I would splash him back.

He'd always be my family.....even if I wasn't his.

And so my body moved.

I stood in front of the wolf, right as Bellamy shot the gun.

Four bullets shot through my abdomen and it's like everyone froze in that moment.

And they actually did.

Shadow. The great assassin.

About to die on the battle field.

I collapse to my knees as blood leaks from the wounds.

The black substance shoots from my mouth as I cough it out.

I look at Bear and he's frozen.

"Bet you didn't see that coming, did you" I whisper hoarsely.

"Why'd everyone stop" Octavia comes out of the woods and my face falls.

"She shouldn't be here for this" I choke out to Bellamy.

He nods and he makes his way towards her.

He wraps her tightly in his arms, trying to pulls her away from the scene.

I make eye contact with her before she starts to struggle in his grip, sobbing.

Anya walks out from the crowd of clans and her eyes find mine.

When she sees the look of acceptance in my eyes, her face falls.

She shakes her head in fear.

Footsteps pound towards me and someone scoops me up into their arms.

They begin to run from the battle.

"Let go of me" I demand, groaning slightly.

"You are not going to die today" the voice demands and I roll my eyes.

"And why is that" I spit sarcastically.

"Because I love you. And I'm not letting you die because of some stupid mistake I made" they speak again and I can feel my vision fading in and out.

"As fast as you run, you can't beat the speed of death. We all die someday" I state and they shake their head.

"Stop saying that. You're not dying because I won't let you" they shout angrily and I smile knowing I at least pissed off one last person.

"If you wanted to save me, you would have done it years ago. But you didn't. You didn't even think twice about me. What makes it so different now" I groan, shifting in their arms uncomfortably.

"If there was an award for worlds worst sister, I would buy it just for you" I smirk teasingly.

"I'm sorry this happened to you. I should have been there for you" I shake my head at her words.

"You didn't have a choice, you're fine. I promise. You-you're fo-fo-forgiven" I stutter, my eyes closing as my body falls unconscious.