Her Secret Adventures

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HE CHOSE ME

I found myself standing in the middle of nowhere. As I roamed my gaze, I felt a sudden smile plastered on my lips.

Because, I saw him, the man that I love...

He's standing still right in front of me, smiling. I was about to wave my hand, when all of a sudden, someone bumped againts me.

I bursted out in tears the moment I realized something. The cause of his smile, it isn't me where his eyes laid at, it was her.

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"Hey honey, you okay?" I gasped as I unclasped my eyes wide open, clouded with tears.

It was just a dream, but why does it fucking hurts?

I turned to look at his gazed, all I could see is concern and care, that's all, nothing much. No matter how I strained myself not to cry, I just couldn't.

"Why are you crying? bad dream again?" He then gave me a warm embrace.

Feels so good to have him by my side. Yet so heartbreaking knowing that until now, it was always been her.

I have the ability to be on someone's dream. I thought it was my dream together with him, but I was wrong. Because all along, I was on his dream, and he dreamt of her- again.

He's been dreaming of her for about countlesss times. And now, I surely know the reason why.

"You still love her, don't deny it," I firmly said, despite of my snivels.

His eyes widened then shifted it onto somewhere else. "I'm sorry..."

I just sighed as my tears continued to stream down. I could feel my heart, breaking into million of pieces.

I knew from the very start that I can't replace her, but damn...

I thought I'll be happy, because he chose me over my twin. But the thought of it made me feel otherwise.

I didn't expect it to hurt like this, like hell.

Ngayon alam ko na, hindi porke't iniwan ka hindi ka na mahal. At hindi lahat ng pinipili ay talagang mahal. Isn't it unfair? Well, that's how life goes.