Her Secret Adventures

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MEMORY LOSS

"There are things that she'll forget, but there are things that'll still remain in her memory. She may encounter short-term memory loss, and the other is she may reminist the past."

I just gulped when I felt my heart's thumping out loud.

"One more thing, your sister needs you, she needs your understanding and attention. Take her here every weekends, to complete her therapy," the doctor said.

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My sister had this heart disease that destorys nerves in her heart, it may lead into a heart attack, stroke, or mental problems as well.

At memory loss ang natamo niya.

Normal naman siya kumilos, ngunit kahit kasasabi mo pa lang ng isang bagay, malilimutan niya agad makalipas lang ang ilang minuto.

She was an outstanding student, ginugugol niya lahat ng atensyon sa pag-aaral niya, dahil lagi siyang sinasabihan na hindi raw parte ng Pamilya. She wants to prove something--- na kaya din niyang abutin ang nagagawa nila kuya, even if she get tired, she will never stop.

Kailangan magawa niya 'yon, just to make our Family proud of her. She even hid her health condition, kaya ngayon huli na ang lahat.

I'm the only one who knew, ako lang ang kaagapay niya. Kaya ako nalang maasahan ni Ate.

My sister had her heart broken 5 years ago. I saw her crying every night. Sabi ng Doctor, maaring nag-lead iyon sa depression kaya lumala yung sakit niya sa puso.

It's a very good thing na hindi siya inatake at namatay, pero sa kabilang banda, malungkot din.

Because there's a possibility that she might forget us, everything.

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"What do you remember Era?" Her doctor asked.

"I was bullied when I was in Elementary. I experienced being discriminated. And lastly, I fell inloved with someone, who I can't have..."

Ilang taon na ang nakalipas, pero iyan pa rin ang nananatili sa mga alaala niya.
Naalala niya pa rin ang masasakit na nakaraan.

How I wish, she will forget those things that gave so much pain in her.

Panay singhap ni Ate ang naririnig ko, pati na rin ang kaniyang mumunting hikbi. Hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili kong makaramdam ng awa.

"Is there anything you remember? Sa mga nakaraang araw lang?" sabi pa ni Doc, habang nakataas ang isang kilay.

"I remembered something..." my sister whisphered but loud enough for us to be heard. "My overthingking, it's killing me every night... I can't stop it."

I covered my mouth using both of my hands. I can't bear seeing my sister being like this, nanginginig na parang natatakot. Umiiyak nalang bigla.

Napabuntong-hininga si Doc habang abala sa pagsusulat sa kaniyang record book. "Do you remember what's your name?"

Ate Era forced a smile. "I can't... wait where am I? Who are you?!"

Agad siyang napatayo mula sa pagkakaupo na parang natataranta.

She forgot it already kung nasaan siya at ang mismong pangalan niya.

"Your sister needs to stay here, nang sa gan'on ay mabantayan namin ang kaniyang kalagayan."

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"Why can't I forget those things that gave me pain from the past?!"

Nakayuko siya habang nakatitig sa kaniyang dalawang kamay, patuloy pa rin ang pagragasa ng kaniyang mga luha.

"I'm tired..." She slightly pulled her hair because of frustration.

"Nalilimutan ko yung mga present happenings, pero yung past? Bakit ba 'to nangyayari sa akin?! I tried to be a good daughter, sister and a friend!" Walang humpay siyang nagsisigaw habang ibinabato ang mga unan sa paligid niya.

"All I want is appreciation! Lagi nila akong nakikita sa mga mali ko! Lagi nalang ako! I thought He'll never leave me, but he did! 5 years ago pa 'yon! Pero I'm still in pain with the past! Please take me to the present! Damn disorder! I'm tired! Maybe it should be better if I'm gon--- "

"I'll take care of you, you'll get through this, Era," pagputol ni Doc sa kaniyang sasabihin.

He then starts stroking her hair, dahilan para mapakalma na si Ate. He gave her a warm and tight embrace, letting her tears all out.

I was about to come near her, to comfort her. When all of a sudden, I found myself hugging Doctor Primo, my psychiatrist.

I halt when a thought came flashing on my mind. I remembered something while I'm telling y'all this story.

I don't have a sister, all along I was alone...

I remembered my name-

I am Era.