I haven't really thought about what I really wanted to do yet, which seems illegal to even think it since everyone else seem to know or have this idea in their head. A lot of people I knew in high school already had an idea, and that's the path they were headed towards. They say you're already supposed to have things thought out when you were a junior. Even in college I still had no idea, but a lot of people were like that.
I had only been doing it for a week and a half or so and it was pretty okay, but it just knew it was going to get worse, I don't know exactly how, but it always does. No, I'm not just being negative, it happens literally all the time, plus it was college, so it wouldn't exactly be fun. I was just waiting to have a mid life college breakdown, but that didn't come yet.
Attending that school, I was subconsciously on the lookout for Beth, though I didn't know her name at the time, I remembered her face, or course I would. Even though I told myself not to think too much about it and not to get my hopes up, the back of my head was still running with all these thoughts. It's not like I was thinking about it everyday, I wasn't actively looking for her like a freak, I just thought it would be such a coincidence to see her again.
But after the first and second day I gave up. I was only reminded of her because before the first day, I remembered her pens, and she said she as starting college, I was kinda hoping it would be this one. In my mind I just thought that if she were there and I did see her, it would be some type of sign that maybe I should try and talk to her, and that maybe she was something
And what do you know, I actually did end up seeing her, not the day or the second day after but a mere week or two later. After basically just dropping the whole thing on the first day I figured it was alright, and maybe she would just be some stranger after all, but boy did my mind bounce right back onto the idea that I should talk to her, try and hang out with her once I saw her.
It was during transition to class, students and staff members walking to where they needed to be. Those who didn't have class just hung out, sitting on benches, and talking with their friends just to pass the time. I needed to get to my class, but I wasn't really in a rush to, it was a nice day outside and I kinda wanted to focus on the atmosphere.
