Finding out that she had a boyfriend bummed me out honestly. Here I was thinking that maybe we could be something or at least try since we always happened to see each other no matter what. The fact that we grew up around the same people without knowing each other. That only drilled the idea further into my mind that it played out perfectly, but obviously it didn't since she was already with someone.
When she told me I was a bit confused, I had seen him with a lot of other girls before, and they acted too friendly with him, and he seemed to act the same way back. So I asked her how long they had been together, and to that, she said around two years or so. Yeah, I kinda concluded in my mind that he was probably cheating on her.
I mean I knew he had a girlfriend and that he was messing with other girls, I just didn't know she was his girlfriend. Did I agree with it? Absolutely not, of course I didn't. Part of me wanted to tell her, just to let her know because she deserved to but I didn't. I didn't want to seem that I was into her, which I was but I didn't want to cause anything, at least in that moment I didn't.
Sometimes my mind flipped between just leaving the couple be and actually trying to do something about it. I never actively tried anything with her, or suggested anything because she was with someone, and I had to respect that. Subconsciously I was just hoping the two would break up so that maybe later on something could happen with us.
That didn't stop me from talking to her or anything, I liked her so of course I was still going to spend time with her. Well it wasn't really just the two of us, we were never really alone together. During our class together, she would shoot a smile at me and of course I returned that smile, then she turned her head to look forward while I did too, but except I would look at her every now and then.
I was really stupid, like totally fucking dumb, still kinda into this girl that had a boyfriend, and she seemed really happy with him. I mean I think she did love him despite him doing fucked up shit, she looked at him like she loved him, and she laughed at his jokes that weren't even funny.
There I was, making sure my hair was okay for Beth who was already in a relationship with someone else, I just didn't seem to get it. While I ruffled my hair in the mirror, I let out a long sigh. I didn't even know if I was gonna see her at James's house, maybe she would come, maybe she wouldn't, I just wanted to look decent if she decided to show up.
