When the glue dries

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Hey Everyone it's been a while huh...

About a month ago, I did something which landed me in the psych ward- I won't say what coz it's personal but It forced me to stop writing for a while and put my mental well-being first. Ik I kinda left u guys in the lurch but for my own mental health I had to take a break

I'm back now and its all thanks to meredithandtequila and meredithsderek1 who have supported me through a really rough time... they don't know it yet but all the support they gave me during this period is the main reason why I'm still breathing, so Mer, Ames thank you so much for everything, you'll never know how much I love u guys x

I'll be back on a sort of writing schedule from now on, I've started writing a new chapter and you can expect an update really soon

Until then ....

Aside from my fucked up issues... My friend wrote an AMAZING Greys poem for her AP English class THAT SHE DIDN'T FKN TURN IN so I'm going to share it with y'all so you can enjoy it x

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"To my lost love"

I scream and I scream
But nobody hears
Nobody hears me begging
Begging for you
For you to come home
To come back home to me
To bring me out of this nightmare,
To wake me up
You promised, remember?
Promised me forever,
That you'd be there for it all,
No running
So tell me why?
Why you went chasing after that light?
The light that was taken from me
The light I can't seem to find no matter how hard I try
Why our promises were broken?
The promises we signed with love,
Vowing our lives to each other
Why the universe is so screwed up?
That it would take you from me?
I mean you were perfect, you were everything
You turned my freakin world
But now my world's stopped turning
It's like everyone's moving so fast
And I'm stuck in slow motion
I just want to go back to when everything was normal
To when you were here
To when I had a reason to go on
I don't even know what the point is anymore
The point of anything.
I was left to watch you bleed,
Knowing there was no post-it
Or ferryboat scrub cap that could plug the hole,
Left to be bled dry of all the love I'd poured into you
To see the lights leave your eyes,
Watch our future drip away
Along with the ever-growing pool of despair and pain beneath you
You'd know
You'd know what to do,
You'd know how to deal with the unbearable pain
that no amount of alcohol or meds could ever heal
You'd remind me that pain comes in all forms
The small twinge,
A bit of soreness,
The random pain,
The normal pains we live with every day.
But this
This is the kind of pain you can't ignore
A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else
The pain of loosing you
The pain that you'll never know
I guess my blood wasn't enough
And neither was my love
'Cause I know that if love was enough you never would've died,
Never left me alone to face this world,
Never taken your last breath and with it my last breath of hope.
Now all I know how to do is sit
I sit and I wait
Waiting for something,
For the knock on the door,
The moment where I wake up,
Where that miracle dream becomes a reality
And this nightmare ends
I'm good staying right here
I'm not gonna move,
And I'll always be waiting for you
So until you arrive
Until you knock on that door
Until you claim to have forgotten your keys
I'll keep screaming
And begging
Enjoying only the sound of silence, my love

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Like how tf did this gurl not think this was good

Anyways thank you all for understanding

UNTIL NEXT TIME MY LOVIES

Your slightly less mentally ill

❤Lexie❤