Darling, just hold on

14. A day full of writing, talking and recording

Tuesday 15/02/2011

Harry's POV

I wake up at 07.00 from my alarm. Yesterday was weird. I hope dad really believed me. I just want to be able to have a father-son relationship. I don't like the feeling of only talking to him or being with him when I really need him for something. It would feel like I'm using him and I don't want that. 

On another note, today, I'm going to the studio with Louis. Louis said the others liked 'If I could fly' so I'm really stoked to record. But first a shower. I get up and my ankle hurts a lot less then yesterday. I probably used it too much yesterday.

When I arrive in the bathroom, I see that Louis has prepared everything. A plastic bag with a few elastics and a waterproof band-Aid.
After my shower, I go downstairs and see Jay who is cooking breakfast.

'Good morning Jay.' I say.

'Good morning Harry, I did you slept?'

'Good, I think. Yesterday was really exhausting and weird.' I tell her.

'I understand. Your dad seemed really tired too. Emotions can be extremely exhausting.' She tells me.

'What do you think is gonna happen? Do you think he's gonna stay with Debbie?' I ask her.

'I don't know Harry. Love is a complicated thing. But from what I could see yesterday, he really wants to make it right and would do everything if necessary.' She speaks. 'Try not to worry about it and take it day by day. You can stay here as long as you need.'

'Thank you.'

'Now, eat breakfast. You will need it. Louis told me you were going to the studio with him and I know that once you are in there, it will be a long time before you come out to eat something.'

'True. When I was there Saturday, we finished lunch around 18.00.' I tell her before I start to eat.
It is really delicious.

Just after 07.30, Louis comes downstairs. He hasn't done his hair and his eyes are still half closed. He is so beautiful, even half asleep. Only when he looks up at me, I notice I've been staring at him.

'How are you feeling this morning?' He asks.

'Better than yesterday. Still really confused. A lot has happened in the last 4 days.'

'True but whatever happens in the next few days, week, months or even years, know that me and my family will be here for you. I know we only know each other for a few days, but I feel like we've known each other for ever.' He speaks. How can he be so perfect?

'Thank you. You really mean a lot to me. Before I met you, I already was a fan of your music. The lyrics you write are so honest and so relatable, it feels like without ever meeting you before, I already knew you. If that even makes any sense.' I say.

'It makes a lot of sense, I think. For me writing songs is really about how I feel and I want the audience to get feelings from it. I really like hearing stories from fans about what a song means to them. Sometimes, it's almost like I was feeling when writing the song, sometimes it's completely different. That is the nice thing about songs. Everyone can interpretate them different based on their experiences.' He tells me.

'True. Do you want to eat? Your mom made breakfast and it's delicious.'

'Yeah, but I will fix a plate myself. You have to rest your leg. Did mom and Dan already leave?'

'Yes, they left 10 minutes ago to bring your siblings to school.

After breakfast, we get ready before going to the studio.