So if your from Jamaica am not sure about other Caribbean countries, well theres this point in high school were your asked to select the subjects you wish to continue study for grade ten to eleven and by the end of the two years you get these really important exams called cxc, csec or cape which is mainly for upper school but you can do it if you want to,
so basically this was in the last term of grade nine, I had to choose the subjects I wanted so I can plan my life at fifteen, I have to start now cause there is no time like the present and I only had a week to bring the paper with my selected subjects to the teacher, I was told to choose based on what I liked and what I could manage or anything that relates to my future studies and career.
So fast forward to when my life actual started going downhill, so eleventh grade, great am almost done with high school, I went in the school term with a different mindset. Over the summer break I realized a couple things 1 people are always going to hurt you it’s you verses the world never forget that, 2 stand up for yourself it’s your last year leave with a bang, 3 fake it till you make it and lastly make some genuine relationships,
and with that I went to school, I continue to people please but not as much, but I actually made some friends and I actually got in a relationship, my grades where ok, home was bearable, life was ok I couldn’t hate. But have you ever had this feeling that something was off, like you just know that it’s going to be a bad day or your too happy so something bad is about to happen,
well I had that feeling but I didn’t care exams are next week and I have to pass or according to my parents am on your own if I dont, so eventually exams came and went then results I passed all my subjects happy me right, wrong. Remember when I said I had this feeling that something was going to go wrong well it did, I was so focused on
exams that i ignored my friends and myself on a whole in those seven months,
that life that I built crumbled , my friends betrayed be again apparently they were just using me to get good grades, and where complete hypocrites behind my back well at least now I realize why I was the one asked to take all group photos and was never in any and why I wasn’t involved in any group activities among some other things,
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Accepting Me
Short Storya story about self love and knowing your value, understanding that you are the only one incharge of your life.
