The water flow briskly underneath the bridge but yet it was calming the night was still and my brain was remembering it all, all the sleepless nights, the betrayal, the lies, the hurt, the bullying, the self-harm and lastly my friends that stoked by me and treated me like an equal Trinity, Deshawn and Ray am sorry i couldn't hold on any longer, am sorry i didn't tell u guy everything and how much u brought light into my dark world and am sorry Ray for what am about to do you of all i know will be very disappointed in me for this. With my loving friends in mind i closed my eyes and wish them the best. Am ready.... "That bridge isn’t high enough " I opened my eyes startled i looked around only to see an elderly woman who seems to be in her late thirties looking at me. "What?" I replied confused, who the hell is this woman and how long she was here for I couldn’t tell. "So your stupid and deaf, I said this bridge isn’t high enough, if you’re trying to kill yourself that is" she said with a slight smile motioning me to follow her and turned to walk away. I was astonished by this woman, she knows nothing about me yet makes these accusations like everyone else and wants me to follow her....she stopped and asked me to come down from there and for some reason i decided to listen to her, i guess it was curiosity. She asked me to take a walk with her and i did, it wasn’t like i had anything to lose if she was some weird psycho killer. I got down from the bridge my gut was telling that it was fine i could trust her and so i did and we started our walk, she asked why i was attempting to take my life but i wasn't going to tell my problems to her but she started talking instead. Half way true her story we made it to the river side where we sat down and i continued to listen to this intriguing woman. She told me how she almost lost her child to suicide because she never had time for her so she wasn’t aware that her daughter was silently suffering, and how it broke her, she told me that the fear of almost losing her child made her improve as a parent , she told me all she went through as a child which was similar to what i went through, she told me that she grow from that experience she was never there for her child because she had a rough childhood and she didn't know what is was to truly be a mother, that she was betrayed by the people closest to her heart that she herself was broken. That she couldn't love anyone but she realized the reason for that was because she didn't truly love herself, she said it was like stuffing a blanket in a closet not folding it or anything but eventually the blanket falls out again and again, until you truly deal with it, she said she had to deal with her past, make amends forgive those who wronged her, and forgive herself, she told me how she got over her depression and anxiety how she faced her demons and learned how to truly be happy without needing anyone but yourself and when you truly love yourself, then you can love and feel the love of others, she told me how she regret that she was the reason why her daughter was suffering. That her happiness moment was when her daughter forgave her she vowed to be a better mom, better than her mom, and show her child the love and support need, she thought her how to be stro ng and how to love herself, how to not care what others think to accept all her flaws to be happy with herself and how to stay true to who she was, she thought her everything that her parents didn't teach her that school failed to mention, she helped her and held her hands along the way but never let her feel stifled, she didn't take her voice she left her with a choice she told her to live every day to create the life she wants, not what anyone else wants, she told her that its ok to be different, she told her its ok to speak up be fearless do what makes you happy. Her story sound like something form a book i couldn't believe it but i then realized that she didn't grow on her own that it wasn't a one man show, that sometimes you need someone to help you grow. She told me that they both grow together that it was a learning experience for the both of them, i then found out that she's a good person. I ended up following her back home and i myself head home,
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