True Survivor (James Yammouni Fanfic)

Chapter 27

James' POV

Concentration. Thats all I wanted, but I could not concentrate one bit. Once Luke called me about what happened with Ally, I caught the first flight back. I had all these mental images running through my mind, all these bad thoughts. But I just shook them all away, she was going to be okay according to Luke, she just needed to take it easy. As usual, I walked into Allys room and noticed that she wasn't on her bed, I looked round and saw her staring out the window, I didn't want to disturb her, so I just watched her, as creepy as that sounds. She still looked flawless, even if she was in a hospital gown, and had stitches in her arms again. Every scar, every tear that falls, every moment she thinks she isn't good enough, just makes me like her even more. Three weeks we've been together and to be honest its been a tough start to our relationship, with me having to leave and all but, I suppose there is always rough patches in a relationship. She moved a little, so I thought now would be a good time to talk to her

"Ally?" I said, and she whipped her head round and smiled weakly when she saw me

"James, I thought you weren't coming today?" she said

"I wasn't but you are coming home later today and I just wanted more alone time with you before we go back to the house where all the boys will be. Plus you needed clothes to come home in, so I bought you some clothes and other bits and pieces that I thought you would need" I explained, but she had this cold hard look on her face, thats when I realised she had built her walls again to not let anyone in

"Are you okay?"

"I'm fine James" she said harshly, to be honest it frightened me to see her like this, she was always smiling when she could but now she was a completely different person and it scared me, maybe the reality of her best friend had kicked in and she was upset about it? But if I was her then I would want to talk to someone about how I feel not take it out on people.

"I'm going to get dressed" she said, she took the bag from my hands and walked out to the bathrooms I think. What the hell was the matter with her? I pulled my laptop out my bag and started on the edit for the mix, it was taking more time than I had hoped it would. But its for the fans and I can't let them down by giving them a shit mix. But listening to the same songs over and over again was becoming a bit of a bore to be honest but I worked on it the best I could, but lets be honest here, my head is somewhere else at the moment.

I remembered thats it's Allys birthday in less than a week, she's having her first tattoo, but I want to do something for her, have party? I don't know, but she needs to meet new people. Maybe a small gathering with some of our friends might be a good idea, get her new friends. I know she has Emily and Eleanor but they work, so she doesn't see them as much as she would like to. That hurt a bit, to know that she hasn't got many friends, from what she had told me none of her friends from school ever kept in contact with her once she was admitted to hospital the first time round, and to know she was so alone made me feel even worse, because I was living the high life. Touring with my best friends, having people sho support us around me to keep me happy and to know she didn't have any of that hurt a lot. I was refrained from my thoughts when I heard someone walk in, it was a nurse

"Hi, you must be James?" the woman said

"Er, yeah this is me" This is me? Really? I geuss my mind was some place else at the moment and I couldn't form my sentences to the best of my ability

"Well, I'm Zoe. I am Allys nurse, I always have been since she was first here. I just wanted to know how she has been with you" she asked, and in all honesty I was scared to tell them what she had been like because I didn't want them to keep her here any longer than she had already been, but I also knew she needed help from a professional maybe?