Reborn as a Stranger

Chapter 13

Zhan's Pov

David...

He looks the same... Did i miss him? If I'm being honest, i didn't even remember him while i was away. Isn't that the proof for me not feeling anything towards him? I know i don't love him. Yet why i led him on all these time? I thought when we broke up, that was heartbreak. But now i know the emotions i felt that time never because i loved him, it's because i was given upon me.

I thought i was a burden even before i met him. I was so insecure. My friends whom i thought will always be with me, left me without a proper goodbye. I found out i was adopted and that made me see everything in different perspective. A simple disapproval from my parents made me to think that they don't love me, that i was actually a mistake or burden to them. In addition to all that the break up only made me think low of me. I hated myself. No i loathed myself. I wanted nothing but end my life. I was depressed. When did everything change?

Why did i waste my time loathing myself? Am i a sadist?

"David... It's been a long time"  What am i doing?

"Yeah... It's been so long... How are you?" David's expression looks friendly but i know better.

"Good... You?" Are we acting out a phone conversation to an acquaintance?

"Not bad... Can we talk? Alone?" David's looking unsure. There's no need to stall more time. I should get it over with the talk.

"Uh.. Yeah... We should talk... " Me being nervous not helping me much. Understanding the situation our friends gave us some space.

We rarely talk face to face. Maybe that's why I'm acting like this. It's like the first time we talked back in high school. We stood there in silence for a few minutes. The silence became too uncomfortable.

"David... I... "

"Where were you Zhan?" He didn't let me complete. I could hear the frustration in his voice.

"I was in South Korea. Thought you knew about that."

"Yeah i know. That's not what i am asking. I know you woke up not long after the accident. But why didn't you call me soon? You could have texted me at least... You know how worried i was... Did you even think of me Zhan?" He asked desperately.

How am i gonna answer to that? I know i was being a jerk to him. It's true i didn't try to contact him. I didn't even thought of him. But saying that to his face only make the situation worse.

"Sorry David... I didn't have my phone with me. Also my doctor told me not to use electronic devices for a while because of radiation." Yeah, that part is true. Though i deliberately avoided his last question. I know this is not what he wanted to hear. I should have think before meeting him.

"Okay... Then did you ever miss me?" He looked me in the eyes. His eyes are really black and now that gaze looks so intense. I felt like a deer caught in headlight.

But before i could respond there was a commotion. We could hear the girls' screaming. Did something happened? Anyone hurt? But the noise is coming closer to where we were. We looked at the direction of the noise and found what was it for.

Oh oh... That's something new. Is that a celebrity who came to visit our college?

"He is new in our university. A med student. The moment he stepped his foot here girls are going crazy about him." I didn't know when Jili got near me. He continued " They say he is handsome and mysterious... Never one to have a small talk... Not even a word. Won't even smile. Cold and aloof. He is always alone but a smart student. Heard he came from Korea. Rumours say he was a trainee or idol in there."