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Dont do it - Armin x suicidal reader

(Warning: this story contains suicide. Read at your own risk)

(Y/n) POV
Why am I here? Why am I still alive?
I ask myself this everyday, I've seen friends, family, strangers be ripped apart and eaten, I've listened to them scream and beg for their lives as their shoved and swallowed whole down a Titans throat, but for some reason this world has decided to spare me.

Slowly i open my eyes the sun shining in my face telling me to get up and start the day, but I don't want to move a muscle, slowly I drag my body out of bed and do my normal routine. I trudge my way down the hallway to the mess hall. 'Why am i here? Why do I bother?' I think to myself. I sit down with my food poking at it taking the occasional bite, when a bunch of other 104th cadets join me "hey (y/n) how you doing today" eren asks cheerfully "fine" I reply my voice dull "same as always" Connie buts in, he continues to yap as always "seriously (y/n) you never change do you your always fine, jeez do you even have a personality, sometimes it's like your not even there" they all laugh, little did they know they gave me an idea 'what if i wasn't here' in that moment I decided...

Today would be the day I die.

It was now dark everyone else was asleep, I'm sitting in the edge of my bed in a mental battle with myself, should I do it? Is the big question, it would be better then getting ripped to shreds or being forced to watch the same happen to others. It's not like it would matter not one would, I'm sure no one would notice.

I snap out of my daze to find myself on the roof, the cold wind nipped at my skin I look at the edge of the room which is a few meters away I take tiny steps closer the cold roof freezing my feet it doesn't matter I'll be dead soon. I wonder if he will see it...

A few hours earlier
Slowly I wrote every word pouring my heart into every line about what I've seen, how I feel and certain feeling I have about a certain blonde boy. I neatly fold the paper and write his name on the front, I slip into the boys barracks and place the note on his pillow.

Present time
I'm now stood on the edge ready for my life to end on my own terms I leans one foot out spread my arms and...

Sad ending
I fall the wind rushes past me, the ground getting closer, time seems to slow down as I fall , finally I will see my fallen comrades, finally I will be feel no more guilt. finally...

I will be free.

Armin pov
SHIT! I lost track of time in the library and when i finally return to my room I find a note, a note saying (y/n) is going to kill herself!!! I rush to the roof top, note in hand to see... no one there is nothing just the roof I slowly shuffle to the edge and look down, my heart shatters into a million pieces.

There on the ground is (y/n) it's hard to see but I can see she is in a pool of her own blood. I rush as fast as I can down to ground as fast as I can, tripping all the way down. I see lights appear behind me, which I assume is me waking people up as my boots echoing through the halls as I run.

Finally I get outside, I turn the corner and see her on the ground in the same position her eyes closed, I drop to my knees and let out a blood curdling scream. I sit there on my knees for a few moments before rushing to her lifeless body I grab her turning her onto her back shaking her shoulder, not caring about the blood soaking into my clothes, tears streaming down my face.

Rapid foot steps come from behind me, Levi, hange, Erwin, Eren and mikasa appear from the side of the building "what on earth is!... oh god" Levi says. They all gasp in horror at the scene in front of the "step away arlert" Levi commands, I don't move and just keep shaking her shoulders still trying in vein to wake her, to sets of arms grab me and drag me back "no! No! NOOO!" I cry trying to get out of their grips "armin stop" eren says "please armin calm down" mikasa adds. Levi carefully approaches and puts his finger to her neck for a pulse. He looks to hange and shakes his head no. Everyone casts a sad look, however I completely freeze and stare at her dead body... dead... she's...

Dead.

"Armin you ok" "talk to us" mikasa and eren let go and I drop to my knees once again. "No, no, no...............

(y/n)...

I love you to..."

Happy ending
(Y/n) POV
"NOOOOO" I place my foot back on the roof and turn to see a out of breath blonde. "Armin?" I ask out loud to see if he was really there, "yes, it's me (y/n), please step away" he reaches his hand out to me and starts to walk closer "DONT, come any closer" he stops dead in his tracks "ok, okay i won't come any closer just please come to me" he continues to hold his hand out. "We can talk, I read your letter we can talk about everything you wrote I want to help you" he persisted "why would you want to help a broken waste of space like me" I shout "because I love you" I gasp he love me, he returns my feelings.

I gradually shuffle my feet back inching closer to him I look at his eyes I can see the purse desperation in them, gently I raise my hand and just place my hand in his.

He grabs it tightly and pulls me into his chest into a hug and we drop to ground him laying on top of me "Don't EVER do that again". "I'm sorry" a tear roles down my cheek "um you can get off me I'm not going anywhere" I say feeling a little awkward "OH right sorry" he crawls off me and stands offering his hands helping me up, he looks down at the ground "why?" "I can't this world I've seen so much death I should be the one to die"

"No, no you shouldn't, I'll help you just stay with me, we will survive this world together, see the ocean together" he pulls me into an embrace.

"Okay"...

I may stay in this world for a little longer...

For him...