Hard to love

Feel that?

Aliyah pov

I slowly got out of august bed so i wouldnt wake him cuz i knew he would try to get me to go to school
I went in the guess room and seen a miss call from chase i smiled a little and texted him knowing hes probable getting ready for school

-sorry i went straight to bed yesterday😢

-its alright...i was thinking you was ignoring me

-no i just been going through alot and needed sometime away from people

-you coming to school today

-nah

-you quite or sum cuz you havent been there in a week

- i cant go back it dont feel the same

-im here for you aliyah i dont think you should quite school

-thanks chase but idk

-come get ready and come on if i dont see your beautiful face today imma be said

(Smiling to myself) -okay im getting ready

I hurried and got dressed and went to wake up august

"August"

"What chu wont lil girl"

This niggah really be stressing over these 3 yrs

"Niggah get up for i be late to school"

"I thought you quite"

"Changer my mind"

He smiled and got up gting dressed i waiting down stairs for him
He finally came down and as we drove he just kept smiling at me

"Whats wrong with yo face" i asked serious

"Your birthday coming" he said

"So" i showed no emotion there was no point in celebrating nun of my family would be there

"Whatchu mean so you finna be 18 but you still aint grown"

"Whatever aug...but ion wanna do nothing its just another day"

"Nah we doing something imma surprise you"
I shook my head cuz he so excited all i could do was laugh at him aa he smiled

"Alright anthony bye...BE GOOD!"

"No promises" he pulled off and i shook my head at his crazy self

I walked in the school taking a deep breath hoping no one tries me today

I walked to my locker and amari ran up to me squeezing the life out of me

"Omg i missed you so much i was sooooo worried about you dont ever leave me like that again i was so only i look so lonely and lost and weird without li dont scare my like that again loser but wait im sorry are you okay i dont wanna hurt you in anyway i just wanna be here for you" he said all way to fast

"Amari calm down im sorry im back and i was just going through somethings"

"I know"

I was confused
"What do you know"

"That your mom was doing drugs and you step da-"

"I didnt tell you that how do you know that"

"People found out this morning"

"I dont tell people my personal life and if i did you would be the first to know..whos telling everyone"

"Jasmine her mom works as the rehab center and i guess that how she knew"

I never liked jasmine she was a stuck up bitch that thought she was suppose to get everything she wanted and when i moved here i didnt take no shit from her so we became enimies but for her to tell my business was petty asf

I walked away from amari to my class when i seen chase we made eye contact but he looked away and kept walking so i went up to him

"Hey chase what up" i asked him with a smile

"Oh hey aliyah i aint see you" he kept looking pass me

"What you looking for" i asked

"Listen i gattah go" he walked pass me going to his class
I was so confused with this school i felt like today wasnt ganna be a good day
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Time flew and i went to lunch sitting in my spot that i always sat in at my table that i found freshman year
I sat down "*clears throat* your at out table"
I looked up and seen jasmine in my face

"Since when is this your table bitch you dismissed" i waves her off

"You need to move with your thot ass" she pushed my tray and u got angry

"BITCH HOW IM THE THOT WHEN ALMOST EVERY DUDE HERE IN NEW ORLEANS BEEN IN YO STANK CAT" i yelled in her face

"At least i don't sleep with my step dad and lie on him and say its rape"

Wtf this bitch really omg i was still for a moment in shock

"What did you just say" my eyes got low

"You heard me slut"

I grabbed her by her neck squeezing with all my might

"Why cant you just leave me the fuck alone you don't know what i been through and he did rape me you self centered bitch you always in my life when you don't know shit..." i said through gritty teeth

People were screaming and yelling for me to stop but i wanted her to feel as bad as i did i wanted her dead
But i released her and someone grabbed me and i was taken away to the office

I waited in there for 30 mins. Then august came in shaking his head he better not start cuz ill fuck him up too

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August house

He didnt say anything while we was in the house but when we got in

" Aliyah" he said calmly which surprised me

"What"

"Whats up with you why-"

"August im not but for this im really tired im tired of people trying to help me or tell what i need to do or tell me whats going on i just wanna leave" i said

"Where you trynna go"

"With my daddy" i said lowly but august still heard

"Li dont talk like that " he came and hugged me tight

"But it true august theres nothing left for me no one needs me and im not important the only thing holding me back is time" I cried

"Ma i need you chu here with me alright your important to me and im here for you to protect you aight"
I nodded and he lift my chin and wiped my tears with his thumb
Our eyes met and so did our lips
As we kissed i felt a shock through my body

I pulled away quickly once I realized what we were doing

"Im sorry" we both said at the same time

"Ill be up stairs" i walked away from this awkward moment