Hard to love

The pain never stops

Funeral

Aliyah pov

As i walked down the aisle and all eyes stared at me i was kinda in shock
Today is the last day i can see my moms face i felt a tight grip on my hand its was jamal he had on his shades hiding his tears she gave a slight smile then we where the first in line to view the body

I took a deep breath
Jamal took one look kissed her forehead and sat down beside amari but i just stood there looking at her face she didnt look like my mommy she did but it wasnt right
Next thing i was on my knees in front of the casket crying then someone pulled me close and away from the casket to my seat

"Its alright baybeh shhhh" i knew it was august i felt save in his arms all the time i tried to breath and calm down as the funeral continued

People went up and told stories about my mom making us laugh and cry

When it was time to bury my mom i didnt think i was ganna be okay but August held me the whole time and i was okay

"Li everyone going to aunty nenas you coming out there? " Jamal asked me

"Nahh imma just chill ill call you later though to check up on my niece" i giggled and told him he smiled and pulled amari close

"My liyah be good" amari said

"I will" im happy for them i truly am the deserve their happiness
I sighed and turned to look up at August
I starred in his eyes the gave him a tight hug

"Thank you for being here for me"

"You know i got chu li" he hugged me back

"I love you" i said quietly

"I love you too" he kissed my forehead and pulled me to his car
I drove with jamal so he wAs my only ride anyways
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" Aliyah what chu doing" august asked laying his head on my lap

"Texting" i responded

"Texting who?" He look up at me

"Chase" i said low

"Chase? That niggah from highschool and the one that beat amari half to death" he sat up and raised his voice a little

"Yes but-"

"Nah i didnt like him befo and ion like him now so you finna stop talking to him" he cut me off

"Niggah here imma give you 100 stairs to sit cuz you not my father i can talk to whoever i want he not like that no more and we just friends" i said

"Ion care li ion want you talking to him" now he was yelling

"Can you calm yo voice" i said looking at my phone typing

Then he snatched my phone "you still texting this niggah whn im telling you not too"

"Gimme my phone you being childish asf!" I reached for my phone but he threw it to the wall

"WTF AUG" now i was yelling i got up to check my phone but he yanked me back

"You bet not gt that fucking phone im talking to yo ass and you gone listen" he threw me on the couch i rubbed my arm where there was a slight purple bruise on it from him grabbing me

"You gone stop talking to that niggah aight?" He said

"YOU NOT MY FUCKING DAAAADDD!" I yelled
He charged for me and was in my face hovering over my body as i was pressed against the couch

"Keep fucking with me" he got up grabbed his keys and left

I went to grab my phone and it was all fucked up he gone pay for this shit to but i can still use it for now untill he come back

He has to come back cuz its his house right?

YeAh im not worried

Should i be worried?

AUGUST POV

Liyah really pissed me off like why you cant cur tides with the dude for yo man must be fucking with em or some shit

I been driving in circles for an hour smoking and just clearing my head

Aliyah texted me saying "where you went" but i didnt reply my phone went off again and i thought it wad her but it wasnt it was this chick carmen i use to chill with from time to time

Hey August

Yo wassup

Nothing much just bored and missing you

Aww forreal

Yess can you swing by😏

Fosho ma ill be there in 20mins

Yay! Ill leave the door unlocked for you baby just come up to my room you know where its at

Aight ma ill se you soon

What aliyah don't know wont hurt her besides she out fucking ole dude so let me gt a quick hit and dip

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Aliyah pov

I woke up in bed alone
August never came back and he didnt call me either
I was worried i called his mom but she said he wasnt there i called jamal and he said he hadn't heard from him
I even called chris ughhh and he said no too

Where is this boy?

AUGUST POV

Damn i didnt leave this girl house
I hurried up and put my close back on and grabbed my othef stuff

"Baby you leaving"

"Yea i gattah go ma" i told then she tried to kiss me but i dodged that shit ewww first ion know where yo mouth been besides on my dick😂 lol and second you ain't brushed yo damn teeth so nahh niggah keep ya lips to ya self

I finally left and headed back to the house praying aliyah wouldnt spas on me

I walked in the house and she was on the couch eating oreos like always
I walked up stairs and took a shower and stuff

Then came back down to sit with her

Aliyah pov

I know this niggah did not HUH okay

"Hi aug" i said

"Hey" he said looking at the tv

"Where you been" i asked

"Bout my business" he looked at me then turned his head slightly rolling his eyes and thats when i seen a hickey on his neck
Hmmm alrighty then

"Oh okay..did you have fun" i held my tears maybe its just a one time thing and he was just mad im not gunna blow up cuz i dont wanna lose him

"Yupp" he said popping the p

"Oh thats good...i umm imma be right back" i got up and went into the bathroom to let out my crys

OH GODDD WHY ME WHY CAN I NOT HAVE SOMEONE IN MY LIFE THAT CARES FOR MY FEELINGS TOO

i love august so much but he does me so wrong but im willing to stay with him just hoping he will change

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poor aliyah😥

Aug cheating ass😡

Carmen😒

Next chapter will be 2months later and amari will be 8months pregnant
And we will see how aliyah and augs relationship is going 😳 are you readdy????