Jealous much? (JeanxReader)

Chapter 12

"Hey Jean. Let's talk." I was dreading this. I didn't want to lose him, but I knew I would just push him away. "Let's start simple. How was your day?"

"Honestly y/n? Really shitty." He chuckled but I could hear the pain behind it. "I missed you. I missed you, Connie, and Sasha coming over and annoying the absolute shit out of me. I missed us teasing Connie relentlessly while you two fake flirted. I missed you and Sasha running off from us. Which I still have no idea what you guys did and I don't want to know. It had only been a day without my best friend, yet it felt like a lifetime."

We both had tears in our eyes.

"I said start off simple. Not make us both cry." I laughed and wiped away my tears.

"We can't start off simple y/n. I can't lose you."

It all hit me at once. God how could I be so stupid. I grabbed his hand and more tears fell from my eyes.

"Jean I am so sorry. I am such a shitty person. You would never lose me. I'm sorry. Please forgive me."

"I could never stay mad at you y/n. You're my rock. You are the only reason I have made it this far. When I lost Marco, I lost my world. That is until you took me to the tree house and told me he's still with us."

"I remember that night." I smiled at the fond memory of star gazing with Jean. "The stars were so beautiful that night."

"I don't remember what the stars look like. All I know is that is when I fell in love with you." I couldn't help but laugh.

"Are we really doing this right now Jean?"

"Doing what?"

"Confessing our love?" He looked at me with a shocked expression. What did he expect? Me to just move on? "I have been in love with you since the day you sat at my table. I was so lonely and you pulled me out of it. I have been in love with you since I met you and I had to sit there and watch as you supposedly tried to make it work with me. Only to give up after like 2 weeks. You start walking on eggshells around me and act like I'm made of glass. You never once treated me like your best friend when we dated. So I had to pine for you on the sidelines while everyone looked at us with pity. Nobody ever asked me out or attempted to try to because it was so painfully obvious how I felt for you."

Jean pulled me forward and touched our foreheads together. He closed his eyes and started talking at a whisper volume.

"I acted that way when we dated because I was so scared of losing you. I don't know how I could bear it if I lost you. You mean everything to me y/n. I love you." Neither of us had stopped crying. Our emotions were so out in the open and I knew at the end of this. Nothing would happen.

"Jean I love you too, bu-" I got cut off by Jean suddenly kissing me.

He kissed me softly like it was the only time he would ever be able to do this. Neither of us wanted to pull apart. We were still holding hands and he used his free hand to cup my face and rub it gently. This felt right. In this moment there was no drama. Eren didn't exist. Mikasa didn't exist. It was me and Jean. Only me and Jean. He finally pulled away and brought his forehead to mine again still holding my face.

"Please don't finish that sentence y/n. Please just leave it at that." I wanted to. More than anything.

But I couldn't deny the fact that I had started to grow some feelings for Eren. Plus me and Mikasas talk. I couldn't go against that. So all I did was stay like that for a minute more. Enjoying feeling like the only people in the world.

"Jean, we can't just say the things we want and ignore the other stuff. We both know that." He didn't say anything, but instead just pulled me over to him and wrapped me up in his arms. "Jean please."

"Then say it. Just stay like this with me please?" I wrapped my hands around his waist and he held me tighter in response.

"We can't date Jean. You know we can't. Not right now at least. I want to so bad. I just can't ignore the fact that you are finally putting in effort and it's after Eren put in effort with me. How about this? We give it until Prom. I believe it's 2 months away. If you still feel the same way and still want to try. We will." I could feel and hear his unsteady breaths from crying.

"Promise?"

"I promise Jean." He kissed my forehead and we stayed like that for awhile longer. "You should probably get going Jean."

I looked up at him the best I could to see he had fallen asleep. I couldn't wake him up that was too cruel. He was probably as exhausted if not more than me. I checked my phone because I heard it going off.

THE HIMBOS AND BIMBOS👩‍👩‍👦‍👦

DADDY👹😩

So y/n😏
how was your date with jaeger?

WIFEY💍❤️

YOU WENT ON A DATE WITH EREN!!!!!????
WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME😤
RUDE

DADDY👹😩

Fuck🧍
wrong chat

Y/n

Shit Connie
It's fine
Sasha I'll tell you tomorrow
I will also tell Jean tomorrow
He's asleep right now so I don't want to wake him

DADDY👹😩

Wow y/n
2 dudes in a day
Well 3 if you count me😉

WIFEY💍❤️

I am extremely offended that I was not invited

Y/n

Well Sasha you are invited tomorrow
and Connie
shut tf up

DADDY👹😩

Jeez fine
Enjoy your night with Jean👀

With that I shut off my phone and cuddled closer to Jean. I knew I shouldn't fall asleep in the tree house. Especially since Levi told me not to. Plus Jean was here so Levi would kill us both. But the longer I sat there the heavier I felt my eyelids getting. I felt so safe and warm in his arms. I couldn't help it. I fell asleep in Jeans arms.

I woke up to someone laughing.

"Levi is going to kick both of your asses."

Shit.