Cranberry Vodka (Billie Eilish)

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"What are you doing here?" I immediately asked as I got inside the car.

"I told you I'd reach out to you," she said and started driving.

"That was weeks ago, I thought we weren't talking anymore"

"15 days," she corrected me.

"Yes, now what are you doing here, are you stalking me?"

"Don't be ridiculous, I came to pick you up at your house, but your mum told me you were at your boyfriends house, so I came here"

"So you just randomly show up at people's houses and expect them to want to see you?" I asked with a sarcastic undertone. "How do you even know where Kacper lives?"

"Yes, it's harder to say no once you're there. Plus I like being spontaneous, I hate all this planning." She ignored my last question.

"Well, I did not want to see you today," I stated.

"Yet, you still lied to your boyfriend, left him and immediately came downstairs to see me," she smirked and I realized she was right.

"Honestly you have just saved me from a threesome with his friend I think," I said in thoughts.

"What do you mean 'saved'? Does he not listen to you if you say no?" She asked concerned.

I looked down and played with my hands. "No it's not like that, he does respect what I say. I meant you saved me from the explaining and all that shit"

"If he's trying to convince you it's rape"

"No, it's rape if I don't want to do it but he still forces me to do it, or just does it"

"Which is the case if he convinces you, since you don't wanna do it, but don't want to keep saying 'no' either, or do it for him, even though you didn't want it in the first place" she said and I realized that is exactly how our first time together played out.

"No it's not, because I chose to do it," it accidentally slipped my mouth.

"Chose?" She said in pain. " WHat did he do to you?" She almost screamed.

"Nothing, I agreed to do it," I stayed calm.

"Because he pressured you?"

"He would never rape me. He would have accepted it if I would have said no again" I said loudly.

"Saying no one time should be enough,"

I stayed silent, before she spoke up again: "So would you have been able to say no today?"

"Yes, of course," I replied immediately.

"Then why was 'your mum' your way out of it?" She questioned.

"If I would have said that you are there to see me he would have gotten angry Billie. He hates your guts"

"So you're risking your relationship with him for me?" She raised an eyebrow.

"Not even close, I can choose my own friends, and he will know, but my mum was just a better excuse that moment"

"You shouldn't need an excuse"

"And you shouldn't be one"

Suddenly she stopped the car and pulled over.

"Casey, you can talk to me, please. Does he do anything you don't want to?" She said seriously concerned.

"No Billie, I can say no for myself, thank you," Kacper would never do this to me, right? Even if I would have stayed he would have accepted my no for the threesome. I was sure.