Cranberry Vodka (Billie Eilish)

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I didnt have a drivers license, so I picked Billie up by foot. She opened the door with a big smile on her face. She looked stunning. Her hair changed again, a darker shade of blue. She was wearing tons of jewelry around her neck, arms and fingers, as usual.

"Wow," she spitted out. "you look- you look hot"

"Thank you," I cleared my throat and looked away. "you too look great Billie."

"So where are you gonna take me?" She asked curiously.

"Well I was gonna take you to the karaoke bar, but I kinda changed my mind along the way."

"What why? I love karaoke,"

"I know, we're still gonna go, but first:" I pulled out a bottle of wine that I've hit in my backpack behind my bag.

"MARRY ME," she joked amazed and I chuckled.

We walked into the closest Parc and sat down on a blanket on the meadow.

"He swallowed it whole?" I laughed in disbelieve.

"He's so stupid, but I love him so much, but he's so stupid," she laughed.

"And what did you do?" I said, still laughing.

"Well we took him to the doctor, obviously. They had to cut it out of my little shark"

"poor boy"

"I mean it really was his own fault."

"For how long have you had him already?"

"I got him ages ago. He always made me feel-safer, I guess," she explained.

"Safer" I quoted thoughtfully. "Can I ask you something Billie? But you have to be 100%  honest"

"Pinky swear," she said lightly, but I didnt grab it.

"Are you safe now? Are you completely done with everything?"

She hesitated for a minute. "Yes, I am free, and I am safe for now. But you never know what might happen in the future. I can t just erase my past. I can't just undo my mistakes"

I gulped. "I wish I could protect you somehow. Be there for you"

"But you already are," she said and smiled with a hint of sadness in her eyes. I caressed her knee with my hand, still worried about her.

"So," she tried to changed the topic.

"it's gotten really dark outside," I noted.

"Yeah, and cold a little," she agreed.

"Here," I immediately took off my jacket and offered it to her "take this"

She looked at me thankfully and I could have sworn I saw her blush a little.

"so, the bottle is already empty, maybe it's time to go to the karaoke bar now," I suggested.

"Whatever you're up to. I'm down." she said and looked me deeply into the eyes. I sank into them. This just felt right. Those eyes looked at me with such a pure expression. Making me feel like I was important, like I mattered.

I looked down on her lips and started to lean in, only stopping a few inches away from her. It was already dark outside, but I could still see the outlines. I looked back up into her eyes, checking for consent. I could feel her breath shortening on my skin. I stayed in this position until the sexual tension was unbearably and too much to handle, and finally connected her lips with mine.

It was different than the other times. More intense, like we finally stopped lying to ourselves. My lips, my whole body exploded. She kissed back immediately and passionately, until I pulled away again out of breath.