𝚁 𝙴 𝙵 𝙻 𝙴 𝙲 𝚃 𝙸 𝙾 𝙽 | 𝙴𝚛𝚎𝚗 𝚡 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛

𝙵 𝙾 𝚄 𝚁 𝚃 𝙴 𝙴 𝙽

authors note:

hi lovelies 💓 I hope everyone is actually enjoying this story !! i'm having so much fun writing and coming up with ideas for upcoming chapters😏

also i'm sorry if i'm not updating daily—sometimes I just don't have enough time to write a whole chapter and i always want it to be my best work for you guys😭

anyway this story is gonna be a WILD RIDE and it means so much to me so I hope you guys love it as much as I do!

I LOVE YOU ALL SM

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(Y/N)'s POV:

Even after my violent outburst with Eren yesterday, I woke up today feeling a hell of a lot worse.

I couldn't tell if it was the argument, the text from Niccolo, or my own lack of coping with these things, but my head was pounding from the second I woke up. Honestly, my anxiety could never seem to give me a break.

I would've actually not bothered to go to school, but I knew today would be much easier—at least I hoped so. We had a field trip in history—to the Museum of Anthropology—and apparently it was an all-day event.

Despite how defeated I felt, I knew I had to go—to prove to Eren that he didn't drain me as much as he actually did. I don't know why I felt the need to prove anything to him, but I didn't think too long on that.

I got dressed in my usual attire—nothing more special than before, and made my way downstairs. My mom was driving me today, since the bus for the field trip would leave earlier than when school normally started.

"You okay, honey?" My mom asked me while I was putting on my shoes.

I nodded, not feeling up to much conversation. I wanted to check the time, but I kept getting mini panic attacks every time I opened my phone. I was so tired of surprise text messages—and I also just wanted any excuse to not have to reply to Niccolo.

So I kept my phone on silent in my hoodie pocket, not bothering to check it on the car ride to school either.

As we pulled up to the parking lot, I saw the school bus parked up by the front, and a few groups of students surrounding it.

Seeing everyone there made me suddenly feel super nervous, but I couldn't explain why. It was just a field trip—why was I so nervous? Maybe I should've just stayed home...

My mom parked the car, looking at me from the drivers seat with a light smile. "Have a good time today, okay?"

I nodded, feeling a bit sick with nerves. I remembered Eren's words from before—'You're just going to give up that easily?'

As much as I wanted to give up—I knew I couldn't. For the promise I made three years ago, I couldn't give up. For Sasha...I had to keep going. Eren had no idea what I was feeling, and I was going to prove it.

On that note, I took a deep breath and got out of the car. I could do this.

I found Annie waiting by the wall outside of the school, away from all the other groups. And in that moment, I was so so grateful that Annie was the only friend I had in this class—she wasn't much of a talker and she usually just kept to herself. It was relieving, being around her. I found I didn't have to pretend as much—that I could be more like myself.

She smiled at me as I walked up to her, and I gave her a slight smile back. Annie had her blonde hair up in her usual pony tail, and a casual look of sweats and a jacket. She could honestly make anything look good.