messy love •harrypotterxoc•

• chapter ten (1)

pain. that's the first thing addy felt when she woke up. her arms scattered in bruises and cuts. dried blood was spread all around her mouth and neck. addy stood up and walked to the hospital wing toilets locking the door before she sat on the toilet and screamed. luckily for the silencing spells that are cast previously for privacy, she wasn't heard. she screamed and shouted until her throat was clawing for air. she was banging on the walls and sinks in pain and annoyance, breaking down. her mind exploding from the pain spiralling through her body. 'why me' she thought. if she could pay for this to stop she would as much as it costs, she'd work everyday, every hour just for this to stop. the consent pain and scarring of mental and physical bruises reminding her everyday she's a freak. a abnormal witch. 'if being a witch isn't special enough add being a psychopathic sleeper to the list' she scowled herself. her body ached for this to stop, her bruises to go, her screaming to stop, her bones to stop acheing. she slumped to the mirroring eyeing the tear stained girl in the reflection, how the dried blood stuck to her red patchy skin. how her blue vibrant eyes stained red from the crying and how her normally plump soft lips are bruised and bitten. she yelled. yelled out to stop the pain, to stop everything. hitting the mirror, sending shards across the room feeling no feeling in her arms from last night. pulling her hair and scrunching it up as she slouched down the wall sobbing her eyes out. she stood up and reached for the toilet paper ripping it off the roll and facing the mirror again wetting it before she scrubbed her skin hard on the blood smudging it off her already red face. she splashed water all over her checks rubbing viscously all over leaving fingerprints and mail scratched. she stood up embarrassed and cleaned her mess, unlocking the door and walked out to her bed making it after 20 minutes to avoid questions. with that she left the hospital wing to her dorm ignoring madam pomfreys shouts for her to let her check her cuts. pretend. that's what she did and has been doing for ages. pretend there's no pain. pretend nothings the matter. pretend her pain is non excising. pretend she does like harry. pretend she doesn't enjoy Harrys present when hes flirting. wait, when did harry join this conversation

she shakely walked to her dorm carrying her eyebags with her which were practicaly the same size as her. she went to her dorm and lay there emotionless for the rest of the day. curtains drawn and covers over her head she slept and stared at the walls.

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today was the quiddich match and addy had put her outburst behind her and decided that she'd win the game today to help. the 4 friends were at the gryffidor table and hermione, ron and addy were eating breakfast while harry sat there still, staring at his piece of toast. before ron could say anything hegwig swooped in and dropped her mail before swooping away. another owl came and dropped on to addy and flew in the same direction. opening the present she heard harry gasp making her open it quicker to see what it is. a broomstick. she smiled brightly and looked around before spotting mcgonagal with both hegwig and the owl that dropped the broom off for addy.

"a broom. it must be for the game" ron said thoughtfully

"no ron it's for sweeping the floors after breakfast" addy rolled her eyes playfully shoving her twin. ron grunted and turned to harry noticing he still hasent ate

"harry you need to eat for the match look addy is" ron said as he glanced to addy who had jam all around her mouth and lifted her head up at the mention of her name. she looked at harry with a annoyed face and threw some toast at him and muffled words along the lines of 'eat it or i will' before returning to her food. after an argument about eating toast harry finally ate some before they left for the match.

"nervous addy, harry" oliver asked

"nope more hopefull" addy replied

"hopefull?" oliver questioned