My Superstar

Her Love

Jane closed TV after watching award show. She lost in thoughts.

Not even in her dreams she expected meeting him today. But not only they met, she even got opportunity to interact with him closely. Before she was too busy to think about it, but now, when she was alone, her heart was filled with joy.

The day she literally dreamt for last 5 years finally came in her life. It was unexpected, but best encounter, even more better than her any imagination of it.

Suddenly, she heard the sound of rain drops, so she came towards the window and opened it. She closed her eyes and took a long breath. Fresh and fragrant air entered through her nose and her mind calmed down.

She looked out of window, it was not too heavy nor too light rain. Without knowing, Jane returned to her past memories.

After end of the lockdown period of 3 months, restrictions lifted by government little by little. Still, school and colleges only allowed to give online lectures to students. Whole 2020 year passed like this.

In this period, Jane only done 2 things, attending lectures or following news about Xue Rong. In that period of time, she really wished that Xue Rong and Yu Tian could become couple in their real life. Yes, she was so obsessed over that drama, that she even watched many videos regularly on YouTube that tried to prove their 'Romantic Relation'!!

In that year, another major event was her breakup with Simon. Actually, they never broke up, they just stopped contacting each other. It was so natural that without knowing, their lives followed their own paths. Simon never talked about their relation after that and Jane never questioned about it to him. They both knew, it was over between them.

In 2021, she was a bit more mature, she stopped dreaming about Xue Rong & Yu Tian being a couple. She learned to appreciate but not to get too consumed in such fantasies of drama. But even after more than one year, her obsession over Xue Rong was still same, if not, it was even more.

She watched his and also, Yu Tian's all dramas on the first day of their releases. Sadly, Xue Rong's drama after ' The Wanderers' got popularity all over China, but Jane strongly felt that his acting was very weak in it.

On the other hand, she liked Yu Tian's drama more, his acting was still best and story was also strong.

But still, Jane never stopped supporting Xue Rong. She realized new fact, she is turned into a hopeless fangirl. But it also turned her fate towards a better side. She got interested in drama making process and started to get directly or indirectly involved in it regularly in local dramas.

In 2022, suddenly her dad died by heart attack. Her mother remarried just after 6 months. Luckily, her dad left good sum of money under her name before he died. Although her mother not left her alone, Jane started to feel distance between them in little time. Her mother was now completely busy in looking after her new family.

For some reason, Jane also don't want her mother to get too close to her. Their relation was never so good as their views over many things goes in opposite directions.

That year, Jane was all by herself and after getting this independence, she used her money to invest in various dramas. 2023 was the year, she started this investments and through this small investments, she got involved in some projects.

2024, most important year in her career. She got huge sum of money from 3 successful projects and in that time, she accepted the fact that she was hopelessly obsessed over Xue Rong and was in fact, in love with him.

Many times in her office, she supported her head and thought about it for hours, still, conclusion never changed. But now she was a mature and reasonable person. She stood before a huge mirror and looked at herself for almost 10 minutes very carefully.

Her weight was around 60. Height 158cm. Looks, little over average. Only plus point was her bright and straight brown coloured long hairs and fair skin. But compared to the other choices that Xue Rong have, she don't stand any chance.

So, what to do? Jane tried to overcome this feelings for over 3 months and even went on 4-5 blind dates, but result was still negative.

Jane troubled over this issue for a long time and her desperation to met him only increased with time. Even at this point, Jane didn't lose her rationality. She thought about it over and over before making her decision.

She decided to move to China. For that, she contacted and invested in many small projects there. It was only to know Chinese drama industry. She used 7 months to prepare everything.

Jane knew, she don't have any chance to get Xue Rong's love. Even a mad person will not really believe that with her appearance, she'll get his heart. Although people say, age, weight, looks don't matter, it actually matters the most. Some people overcome one or two the barriers for love, in her case, list of barriers was so long that Xue Rong literally have to close his 5 senses and turn into a fool for such possibility.

So, she decided that she'll not try to get his love. She only want her little presence in his life. She wanted to witness how he lives his life, what things in real life make him happy, what is the feel to work with him?

Jane tried and reduced her weight to 45 kg in seven months. At least this thing was in her hands. She wanted to show her best side to her male god.

On February 2025, she moved to China. Her goal to come here was settle and spend her life with working on various projects with Xue Rong. She will not ask for love from him. She only want to accompany him and spend her life happily.

If he got himself girlfriend or got married with someone, she was ready to give her best wishes to them. She for herself, only wanted to watch him everyday. She wanted to become his friend. Just a friend. It was more than enough for her. It is enough for every fan who loves their idols and know the result of such feelings.

Jane suddenly shivered because of cold breeze and closed window. She got on her bed and led down to sleep.

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Tick tick, tick tick..

Xue Rong looked at the massage, ' Dinner with drama crew at 27 Feb. 8 pm. Location, Hotel Royal Star. - From Director Li.'

' It's pretty soon, but nevermind. I'm looking forward to it. Hope new co-star is good actor.'

Xue Rong closed screen and started to read script. He was looking into a drama scrip, that he was going to sign after a day.

Authors Notes :

Good Day...!!