I was a little shocked to hear Wilf’s voice again after so long and strangely, it had even shaken me up. The vivid images of his depressive mood flashed through my mind; the shouting, the alcohol, the disappearance. Everything that had happened between us had been dragged up again and I feel utterly crap. I had only just started to move on with my life and forget about the man I had loved, but once again he was all I could think about.
I woke early one morning and simply laid completely still in my bed. Staring at the ceiling as though something was going to come from it, but nothing ever did. I had the weirdest dream that the ceiling would open up and I would be lifted towards the starry sky until I felt nothing but peace. It was a recurring dream and I wasn’t exactly sure what it meant. I continued to gaze aimlessly at the ceiling until I was jolted by a sweet, timid voice that broke the painful silence.
“I’m awake mummy” She beamed, stepping into my bedroom with Mr Snuffles tucked under her arm. I blinked and sat up gradually, giving her a weak smile.
“I can see… Come over here” I motioned. Quickly, she hopped up onto the bottom of the bed and climbed towards me. I enveloped her into my arms and squeezed her tiny, body tightly against mine. Words could not describe how much I loved this little girl and right now, my emotions took over me. She was all I had in the world. I was never going to let myself forget that.
“Did you have a good sleep?” I questioned, stroking her mousey, brown hair affectionately. I released her from my death grip and slumped back onto the pillow behind me. She rested her head on my chest and nodded,
“Yep, I had a dream about peach blossom” She giggled, I had to rack my brains to figure out who the hell peach blossom was until I remember it was one of her plastic toy ponies. The pleased look on her face caused my heart to swell with happiness.
She was such a sweet child, which was odd considering Wilf and I had both been utter brats when we were younger. Sometimes I’m scared that she will turn out like the two of us. I didn’t doubt that she had heard some of the arguments that we had had; perhaps subjection to violence would make her think it was normal.
“Aw, is peach blossom your favourite?” I smiled,
“No…” She murmured, “She was Uncle Oliver’s…” Once again, the mention of Oliver caused my heart to sink and I couldn’t help but think about him. I wondered what he was doing right now in his brand, new house in Ireland. Surrounded by beautiful fields and historic culture, he must be having the time of his life. I doubt if Gabi and I even entered his mind.
“Oh…” I sighed, glancing down at her. She looked sad for a second before leaping out my arms and clambering hastily off the bed,
“Can I have breakfast now?” I knew this was probably just a ploy to make me forget about Oliver and I mentally thanked her for changing the subject. I swear, sometimes she acts beyond her years. She knew how to make people feel better, a trait I was definitely grateful of. Gabi was what kept me going right now and the fact she cared so much about me, let me know that I hadn’t failed totally as a mother. I might not know where we were headed in the future, but I had raised her to be a kind and caring person, that was worth way more, right?
“Of course” I replied, flicking the warm duvet from off of me. I instantly felt the brutal cold and grabbed my dressing gown that was slung carelessly on the floor. I pulled it on quickly before following Gabi to the kitchen.
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We Are Not Forgotten
Teen FictionRebecca knows more than most that life isn't fair and now being a young, single mother shows her how difficult it really is. With hardly anyone willing to help her, she starts to feel forgotten by the world. By doing things she will regret and losin...