Blackbird

*(Y/N)'s POV*

I'm sorry this chapter is a shitshow, I hate mornings after 😂

I woke up with a heavy feeling on my chest. I felt hot and suffocated. What the hell is wrong with me?
As I slowly drifted out of sleep I realized I hadn't spent the night alone. All the events of last night came back in a whim, reminding me of what Steve and I had done. It didn't feel real, like a dream rather.
I looked down at him as he slept with his head on my chest and his arm around me. His leg also draped over mine. He looked so peaceful, not at all like a self-absorbed know it all he usually is.
He also looked hot, and how he acted last night was... hot.
But to be honest I don't know how to act now that we've been, well, intimate. This feeling of hate I had is certainly gone now but what if he just shuts me out again or worst, fucking ignores me again like when he's pissed at me? I am overthinking again, clearly.

'Mornin' (Y/N).'

A sleepy Steve said with a deliciously raspy voice. His eyes not even open yet. He looks so fucking cute and I don't know how to act now.

'Morning. Do you mind moving? You're crushing me.'

'Sorry.'

But he didn't move. He had opened his eyes now and was looking at me, a sly smile tugging at his mouth.

'You don't know how to act towards me now, don't you?'

I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out. I still had to process what had happened between us and how to act towards the others. And his smile was also really, really hot to say the least.

'Earth to (Y/N)? Hello?'

I shook my head a little to get out of my thoughts.
'I'm sorry, I guess I'm just a little... speechless? I don't know, is that the right word? Ugh I don't know anymore dude. I'm so confused. Where does this leave us Steve?'

Steve smiled at me with an understanding gaze, he seamed to think about it for a second before speaking.

'I know this complicates a lot between us,... but what if we just see what happens? Sort of go with the flow? Take it as it comes?'

I wasn't sure this could work. Our teammates would probably freak out and Tony? God knows how Tony will react. I know he plays the easy going type but when it really comes to it... he's gonna freak.

'I don't know if I want this Steve. He practically hated each other two seconds ago and then we fucked. That is not normal if you ask me. Can we just pretend this never happened when we go down to the others? For Tonys sake please?'

'Sure but I won't act like it never happened when we're alone. I don't think I can forget last night (Y/N). And I wanna tell Bucky.'

I don't think I heard him correctly. How come he just did a 180 and wants to be around me now. Something had changed last night between me and him. I just couldn't quite put a finger on it yet.

'Didn't I just say we don't well anyone? If you tell Bucky I'll tell Nat and Wanda.'

'Well (Y/N) that is two people so I'm telling Bucky AND Sam if you're telling Nat and Wanda. If you get two I get two.'

'Oh yeah and if I jump off a bridge you do too?'

He looked at me in disbelieve, smiling slightly. It was as if he couldn't get it off his face this morning.

''Oh come on Tiny that is not the same thing and you know it.'

'Hey! Don't call me Tiny. Only Tony can call me that.'
'Okay then. We don't tell no one then. If they find out by themselves though we can tell them. Deal?'

I thought about it for a second. It wasn't a bad idea: we could have some fun with each other, the others leave us be and we can get to know each other better and maybe learn to like each other even if it is just as colleagues or team mates.

'Deal. Now get out of my bed and room, Captain Kink. We'll see each other downstairs in the common room.'

'What did you call me?'

'Captain Kink? You have a begging kink, you where there when it happened, I thought you knew.'

I had to tease him a little bit. He made me beg last night and I don't beg so he has to take the teasing. He, however, let out a laugh and didn't let it bother him. Steve stood from the bed in all his naked glory and picked his clothes from the floor before taking of to his room. And as he walked out, and looked back at me for a second, the only thought that entered my mind was 'God, that IS americas ass.'