Dare To Love (Love Duology #1)

Chapter 14

Chapter 14

Listen

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Hearing explanations won't hurt me nor anyone else. It won't put harm on me, but there's something in me that keeps stopping me everytime I decided to listen. Maybe, it's my pride. Just maybe.

I wasn't sure why I want to hear his explanation on why he did that to me, but everytime I tried to go or text him about his explanation, something will come up to make me busy. I'm already working under El Line as the head of marketing team, so I'm always busy whenever I go.

"Ma'am Laura, ayos lang ho ba kayo?" One of our employee asked when he caught me almost tripping after I got a bottled water for myself.

"I'm fine. I just got a bit dizzy." I politely answered, feeling dizzy.

"Hala ka, Ma'am. Dapat, magpa-check ka na po sa hospital. Baka, sa over work niyo po 'yan. Sabi sa inyo, umuwi kayo ng maaga, e." He said while worriedly looking at me.

"It's fine. Maybe, I'm just lacking of sleep. Uuwi na lang ako ng maaga mamaya para makapag-pahinga ako ng maaga." I said, making him feel at ease.

"Sabi mo 'yan, Ma'am, ah." He said before leaving me alone.

I shook my head and blinked multiple times when I felt dizziness again. I slightly hit my head before proceeding to my office and ate my lunch. It was a bacon wrapped chicken breast stuffed with mushroom and a cup of rice that our maid cooked for me. These past few days were pretty weird for me since I always starve like a hungry man who didn't eat for a month or a year. I would always search for a bowl of rice everytime I get hungry. I will make someone cook a food with mushroom and bacon. I'm always craving for them.

Sometimes, I got annoyed by just seeing my brother's face when he didn't even do anything. Kuya Laus was just silently reading a book when I got annoyed by him. He didn't notice it since I immediately went back to my room, annoyed by him. This is weird for me. Pretty weird since this... is the first time that I've been acting like this. Isama mo pa ang ilang beses ko nang panghihilo at pagsu-suka.

I was thinking about these for a week now and I am really nervous that I couldn't get any courage to check if it's true. I'm too nervous to confirm my hunch because of my what if's. What if it's true? What will I do next? What should I react? Do I need to announce it? How should I announce it? How they will react? What will I say if they ask the questions I've been avoiding too? What if they hate me because of this? What if they doubt? Those what ifs are killing me.

"I need to face this." I whispered as I stared at my own reflection through the metal spoon I was holding.

Whatever this is, I need to face it and stand with it. I did this. I will stand with my actions because no one forced me to do it. Nag-kusa ako. Ginusto ko.

I was so nervous while waiting for the doctor to reveal the answer of my questions, to confirm my hunch. She was scanning the paper she was holding while waiting the pregnancy test to be done. When she looked up to me, I felt my knees shook because of nervousness I was feeling.

"You're pregnant, Miss Marquez." She announced while showing me the ultrasound.

I hid the truth. I didn't tell anyone about it. Even the father of the child I was carrying didn't have any idea that he's already a father. I hid it from them since I couldn't still believe that I'm pregnant. One of the reasons why I hid it was because of Steve. He's in a relationship. Makakaya ko bang sirain iyon dahil lang sa buntis ako? But my child is important too. He or she is beyond the importance of their relationship. Anak niya 'yon. Anak niya 'to. His child should be his priority.