Dare To Love (Love Duology #1)

Chapter 36

WARNING: SPG, R-18,

Chapter 36

Smile

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Steve and I went out of his car when we arrived at the cemetery. Steve was carrying a bouquet of baby blue poppies while I was the one who was carrying the candles. We were silent as we arrived at the museleo of Selaphiel. Steve opened the gate of it before we finally entered.

I turned the lights on, making me saw the name of my son on the only tombstone inside the museleo. There wasn't even a photo of him since we didn't even see him because he left us already before we could even meet him. Bitterness crept my heart again upon remembering what my baby had experience.

"Hi, Selaphiel. Daddy's here," Steve spoke after he put the flowers above Selaphiel's tombstone. "Mommy's here, too... I'm sorry if we couldn't visit you often. We were busy putting the person, who did this to you, inside the jail. And yes, we did it. He's now living his life inside the prison, where he belongs."

Pinakinggan ko si Steve sa pakikipag-usap sa anak namin habang sinisindihan ko ang mga kandilang dala namin. Nakaupo sa isang monoblock si Steve sa bandang harapan ng puntod ni Selaphiel habang abala ako sa pagsi-sindi ng mga kandila nang makaramdaman ako ng malakas na hangin na para bang pinapaalam sa 'kin ng anak ko na ayos siya... Na sana gano'n din ako.

Steve chuckled upon noticing the wild blown by the wind. "My son misses us, Lalaura..."

"I miss him, too..." I whispered as I felt my eyes watered.

I missed craving for foods that I never eat. I missed caressing my stomach, where he is. I missed my morning sickness. I missed wearing loose dress for him to be comfortable. I missed him... So much.

"Baby..." Steve stood from the monoblock and walked near me. He hugged me from my back and wiped my tears on my cheeks with his hand. "I know, Selaphiel misses his mom, too..."

Steve calmed me down when I almost have a breakdown in front of our son. He was just hugging me while caressing my hair as I leaned my head on his chest. He was humming a song to calm me more and when I was already calm, he made me sat in front of Selaphiel's tombstone. Pinunasan niya ang magkabilang pisngi ko na nabasa dahil sa biglaang pag-luha ko kanina gamit ang panyo niya. Nang makitang tuyo na ang pisngi ko, umupo na rin siya sa tabi ko habang patuloy akong pinagma-masdan.

Tahimik lang kami ni Steve habang parehas na nakatingin sa lapida na nasa unahan namin. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na ang pangalang naka-ukit sa lapidang tinitingnan namin ngayon ay ang pangalan ng anak namin na siyang dahilan upang magpa-kasal kaming dalawa sa isa't isa. Looking back on what happened in our life made me missed my son more. He was the reason why I married Steve. He was the reason why I cried every night, but he was also the reason why I always choose to fight every day I woke up.

Selaphiel Ramses M. Lee

Born Date: October 12, ****
Death Date: October 12, ****

Selaphiel... The archangel who protect children. Baby, Mommy misses you so much, but if you're happy right there already, I'll be for you, too. I know that you're already in peace without even experiencing what life is, but I'm thankful that you couldn't experience how cruel the world is. Despite the bitterness I am feeling right now because of your cruel death, I'll smile for you because I know that you won't like it if I'll cry every time I remember you.

Nakatitig lamang kaming mag-asawa sa lapida ng anak namin nang dumating sina Mama. May mga dala silang pagkain dahil ayon sa kanila ay dito na lang daw namin i-celebrate ang anibersayo ng kasal naming mag-asawa. Dumating din sina Kalani at Oliver na parehong walang pasok ngayon dahil linggo. May mga dala rin silang mga pagkain na in-order lang nila sa isang fastfood restaurant. Wala sina Kuya dahil pare-pareho silang may mga trabaho ngunit hindi nilang nakalimutan na mag-padala ng mga regalo nila. Si Stella naman ay hahabol mamaya dahil may shooting pa raw siya.