The Elements Of Life

Pumpkin Eaters

"Oh my God! He is so hot. I want to be with him. I want to kiss him and call him my boyfriend. I love him but he's with her. I envy her." I say. "Chill out Em!" Raven says with a laugh. "Rapunzel is way hotter than Flynn Rider."she continues. Me and Raven are having a Disney marathon and we decided to watch my favorite Disney movie ever. If you couldn't tell by the names of the characters, we are watching Tangled. I have been madly in love with Flynn Rider/Eugene Fitzherbert since I was 6. "At least I don't have a bi panic everytime I watch it." I say with a laugh. "It's not my fault that both the main characters are hot." she says with a smile. We continue watching and having fun together. She has always been my best friend. When the movie is over we meet up with Dex at the park. We all talk for a bit. Raven and Dex start playing a game of one on one together and I just watch while we talk. They are such a cute couple. After about an hour, Trey and Sydeny meet up with us. It's Sunday morning now. Me and Raven just watched movies and painted on Saturday. Trey and Sydeny start talking about their couples weekend. They had a picnic on the beach and walked around downtown. All kinds of boring couple stuff. We start an actual game of basketball and Sydeny coaches the game. She never plays any sports with us. I've always wondered if it was for a reason or just cause she didn't want to play. We played a game of girls against boys and the boys won. Both Trey and Raven aren't the best when it comes to basketball. We play another game and I played with Dex this time. We were an amazing team. It made sense considering we were both great at basketball. He has this look in his eye when he plays. He is always so determined to win. He cracks a smile when we win and then we all sit down and take a break. Eventually we all left the park to do our own things. As the night goes on me and Raven start having deeper conversations. I've never kept anything from her...except for one thing. Raven didn't feel so good so she went home. It's was about 11pm at this point. I was kind of lonely. I couldn't get the picture of Dexter's determination face out of my head. I ended up calling him and asked him to meet me at the park. He agreed and we met up at the park. We played a little bit of basket ball and then just talked. We never really hang out just us. It's kind of calming being with him. He's wearing jeans and a plain black hoodie. I wore black leggings and a random Eminem shirt I stole from Anthony. The last time we hung out was a few months ago when him and Raven were on a break. He was upset about the fight so we called me to hang out with him. We started talking and then we made the biggest mistake ever. We haven't talked about it ever since. I couldn't get what happened off my mind. Him and I were talking about all kinds of different things while laying down and looking at the stars. I sat up. I wanted to ask him about that night but I didn't say anything. He sat up too. "What's wrong? Are you okay?" he asks. "Are we ever going to talk about what happened? She needs to know." I ask. "She can't know. She'll kill us both. Just forget about it." he says anxiously. "I can't forget about it. You can't just kiss a girl and expect her to just forget it. I've had feelings for you for years now and I thought that kiss meant something." I say. I start crying. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that." he says. I look into his eyes. Tears running down my face. "Did you ever have feelings for me? Or even thought you did?" I say quietly. "Emma... I've had feelings for you for a while now but I love Raven. I couldn't do that to her. I can't get the kiss of my mind either." he says. He wipes the tears off my face. Our faces getting closer and closer together. I can feel it. The butterflies are back. He puts his hand on my cheek. Our eyes lock and soon after, so do our lips. We kissed. It was at this moment that I realized it. I didn't just like him. I loved him. I was in love with my best friends boyfriend. He pulls away and stands up. He's crying now too. "What did I just do. Not again. Ugh I'm an idiot." he says. I'm crying even harder now. I get up and hug him. He pushes me off. I fall to the ground. My heart is broken. I love him. "Follow me." he says with his hand out. I take his hand and follow him. I don't know what's going to happen but at this point I don't care. I just want to be with him. He brings me to his house. Nobody is home. It's just us here alone. He brings me to his room. He closes the door behind me. I know where this is leading too. My heart is pounding. He grabs me by the waist with one hand and puts the other on my cheek. He kisses me. I'm going to regret this and I know he will too. He pushes me to the bed. We keep making out. "Are you okay with this? Taking a step farther? We can stop if you want." he says. But I don't want to stop. "I want this. Are you okay with this?" I say. He starts to kiss me again. One step after another and here we go. Oh my god. He just cheated on Raven...with me. When we finish I grab my clothes and change quickly. He gives me his hoodie. I run home before anyone notices I was gone. I don't want to stop seeing him. He doesn't want to stop seeing me. We made a plan to start seeing each other in secret. Meeting in the bathroom and late at night. I love our little affair. I love him.