Left out. . . {bxbxb}

chapter twelve

is it normal to listen to a song on repeat for six hours straight- 

(The italicized sentences are flashbacks btw)  

-Nolan's POV-

I look down at the sleeping boy beside me and smile. I was so lucky to have found someone like Derek in this world. He's the only guy I've even been in a relationship with, and maybe the only guy interested in me!

 Well, except for that weird kid from a few years ago.

I think his name was Paul? Parker? Whatever his name was, I'll never forget that time one of my old friends, Gary, told me that whatshisface had a crush on me. 

"Hey Nolan, you'll never believe what I found out!" My best friend Gary said to me in class one day. "What is it?" I asked. "So you know that red-head kid who sits in front of Kelly?" I looked around the classroom and saw him. He really wasn't hard to miss. "Not well but yeah," I said. "Okay so, you didn't hear this from me, but I heard carrot top over there has a crush on you" He snorted. 

I look over at him, trying not to catch his attention but failed. He saw me looking at him. The audacity! I thought. The bitch has a thing for me and he fucking smiles at me? I glared at him with more hatred than I could've ever imagined feeling. I never felt such angry for someone and I had no idea why. After class, when everyone left the room, he was still there. I don't know what came over me, but I walked over to him. 

"You sick fucker" A hissed at him. He looked at me, clearly confused. Then I slapped him. It was like my arm wasn't in control of my body. It had just.. happened. I wince at the sound of skin hitting skin and pull my arm back quickly. "Dude, what the hell?" He asks, his eyes widening. "I got fag germs on me, disgusting..." I mutter. He recoiled in shock. "W-what?" He asked. 

He looked at me in shock, and I noticed a slight blush coming onto his face. "I don't-! I mean I'm not- uh" He frantically began. He pushed past me and rushed out of the room. I stared after him, watching him run down the hall. I felt so confused. After school let out, I begged my parents to switch me to another school. It took a lot of fake crying and lying but they caved in and I never looked back.

Seeing him in that restaurant made my blood boil, and I still have no idea why. I tried to be nice and kind and loving to Andrew, but he never seemed to notice or care. But when redhead shows up, acting all friendly and charming because it's his JOB, Andrew cares. I thought I'd never see him again, so I never really thought about how I would react if he did come back into my life.

I sighed, trying to not wake Derek. It seemed like no matter what I did, Andrew just.. wouldn't like me. I really do like him, I just hope he feels the same like Derek said... Maybe I should text him! He is on that trip with his friends, maybe I can see how he is! Derek did give me his number. Andrew wouldn't mind, would he?

Nolan
Heyyy Andrew! Just wanted to see how you were! Are you enjoying your trip?

I waited a few minutes to see if he replied. I put my phone on my chest and lied down on my back. I looked on my phone again and saw he read my message. I waited a bit for a reply, but he never replied. I blamed it on the bad connection wherever he was but deep down I had a feeling he was going to leave me on read..

I slowly drifted off to sleep, thinking of Derek and Andrew. I knew Derek loved me, but I only wished Andrew did too... I thought back to the guy from the restaurant, then back to my old school. I wish everything wasn't this confusing. I felt someone's arms wrap around my waist. Derek had started cuddling me. I smiled softly. At least I have someone who cares for me.

A chapter..that wasn't published months later? Who am I and what have I done to me? 
Lol it's like 12 in the morning when this was finished being edited and I'm so tired-