Left out. . . {bxbxb}

Chapter five

 Oliver ^

Andrew-

I silently eat my food while Derek and Nolan are chatting away. "Nolan... I know we only met not even a day ago... but I feel a strong bond forming between us. I've never felt this happy with anyone else before..." Derek says blushing. I stop chewing and stare at him. WHAT THE HELL AM I? CHOPPED LIVER? He didn't even feel happy with me...? "W-wow Derek! I- I'm so happy you feel that way!" He pauses. "But will Andrew be okay...you are dating him after all. "I open my mouth to speak but Derek cuts me off. "He's fine with it, he told me earlier. In fact, he couldn't stop talking about you. He loves you a lot, Nolan" Derek says grinning from ear-to-ear. 

What.

The.

Fuck.

Before I can strangle Der, Patrick pops up at our table to take our empty plates. "Can I get you folks any dessert?" He asks. Der orders a brownie and so do I. Nolan stays quiet, smiling big. "Coming right up!"

"I-I'm so happy you guys feel the same way!" Nolan says, happily. Right now I want to die. Not only is Derek lying to Nolan about my feelings, but he's also slowly drifting away from me... It isn't fair. Everything was going perfectly fine until Nolan showed up. This is killing me.

💘💘

We finished our desserts and I was so happy to get out of there. It was torture having to go on this date. Patrick comes back with the check and Derek gestures at me. I guess I'm paying tonight... Patrick smiles and hands me the check. $28.22. Lovely. I notice at the bottom of the check, Patrick wrote what I assume is his number. I look around for him and he's smiling at me from across the restaurant. I memorize the number then I pay for our meals. Patrick waves at me as we're exiting the restaurant. I'm planning on calling him as soon as I get into Nolan's car and he drives us back to school. 

"Hey Andrew," Derek begins, as we walk into the parking lot. "I was wondering if you could drive us home, after all, I want to be in the back with Nolan." He says, ruffling Nolans' hair. "No thanks babe, If you want to sit near Nolan, he can drive and you can be upfront with him," I say. Derek rolls his eyes but doesn't say anything. 

I quickly move into the back seat and take out my phone. I figured I'd just put in the number and see what happens when I get back to school. I'm exhausted from spending tonight with them honestly. It's a short drive back to college. I'm glad. I quickly get out of Nolan's car and start running inside before either of them can say anything. 

"ANDREW WAIT!" 

Damn it. I turn around and Nolan is chasing after me. "I just wanted to tell you before you go that I'm really happy you came... And I'm really happy you like me too!" He gushes. "Oh uh..." I tense and try to find the right words. What I wanted to say was, "Nolan I'm sorry, but I don't like you that way. Derek was lying because he wanted to date you but I really don't have any interest in you..." But of course, I say; "I- I wouldn't miss coming on the date for the world, it was super fun!"

I'm such an idiot.

Derek smiles, not understanding that I didn't mean to say those things, and takes Nolan's hand. "Well Andrew, It's been fun, see you tomorrow" He and Nolan walk back into the school, hand in hand, leaving me out there alone. I want to start crying. Normally Derek would give me a goodnight kiss before I go to bed... That was when he still loved me though... My phone beeps, snapping me out of my thoughts.

Derek 
9:14
O yea, gn bb cya tmrw

He didn't even care enough to come back out and say it...let alone use proper grammar... I try to shake these negative thoughts out of my head. He still loves me... I know he does... And if he'll only love me if I love Nolan... then I'm just going to have to. Who knows... maybe I might like him too...

💘💘

I walk to my friends' dorm and knock a few times. "Go away!" Jackson calls out from the room. I roll my eyes and keep knocking. "Jackson, it's me." It's silent on the other side of the door for a few moments before Jackson says, "I see," The door opens and I'm pulled into the room. "We missed you bestie!" They exclaim in unison before enclosing me in a bear hug. I roll my eyes at my friends' stupidity, but allow the hug to continue. "Sooo... how was the date-..." Jack asks, shifting his gaze away from me. "You want my honest answer?" I ask him. He nods slightly. I take a deep breath. "It sucked ass man."

Olivier cracked a smile and Jackson snorted. "Andy, I could've told you that," Oliver says, snickering. I normally hate when people call me Andy, but I make an exception for Oliver and Jackson. When I was younger, in about first grade, my teacher said "Good job on the test Andy! Here's a sticker!" I looked her dead in the eyes and said my name was Andrew. She just laughed and then patted my head and said, "That's nice Andy, now which sticker would you like," I remember talking the entire sticker sheet and walking out of the classroom with it. My mom was pissed-

Jackson and Oli love it when I tell that story, it makes them laugh all the time. The one time I told Derek, he said; "Wow, you were a stupid kid. Glad that phase passed." But I couldn't hate him for it... after all, he was just being honest right...? I didn't think much of it then, but now it seems like I missed a few big signs...

I was just happy to be with my friends again. At least I have them.

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I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN A WHILE AND I'M SORRY.
I was working on my other book Mixed Feelings and I have A BUTT-LOAD of work... being in the seventh grade is H A R D. Anyway, feedback is appreciated, good or bad!

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