A New Life

Chapter 44

Chris POV:

I sat next to her for a few hours then I was asked to leave. It's late and visiting hours are finished.
I realise I haven't even contacted Katy's family. God, how do I even approach this?
I'm sitting in my car outside the hospital. I pick up my phone and make the international call...
The phone rings for a bit before a tired voice picks up.
"Hello?"
"Hey Lyn, I know it's early there but somethings happened with Katy and I think you or someone needs to come over. I know it's hard at the moment to do so but she really needs family here." I say trying not to let the tears come out.
"What's happened? Is she okay?" Concern lacing her voice.
"She's in hospital. She hasn't been dealing very well since losing the baby and tried to end the pain. She's being put into an induced coma for a few days, but she's really going to need you." I struggle to say.
"Oh my god... I uh... oh god..." I hear her starting to cry. "I just.. oh god." She repeats.
"I'll pay for the tickets, you just need to come. I'm so sorry, I just don't know what else to do. She needs her family with her..."
We make the arrangements and I said I'll let her know when the tickets are booked. It'll be just her as her sister is too pregnant.

I drive home and walk into the empty house. I sit down on the couch and just let every emotion I have come out. "FUUUUUCK" I scream with tears following. I stay like that for another 10 or 15 minutes.
Okay time to book flights. I was able to find a flight for 5:00am New Zealand time for tomorrow. I book it and the returning flight for two weeks later. Send the ticket and information and whatnot to Lyn. She'll be here by Wednesday morning.
I can't go upstairs. The thought of seeing our room, our bathroom.... the letter... I feel sick. I grab the throw and lie down on the couch.
But I can't fall asleep.
How could she do this?
How could she think I was angry at her?
That I blame her for everything that happened?
How could she think I could just move on?
She's my fucking life. I can't even imagine what my life would be like without her. She's everything I've ever wanted. I just... I don't think I could go on without her.

I must have drifted off for a couple hours, I don't know how but I did. I woke up from my phone ringing.
It's Ricky.
"Hey Rick." I answer.
"You home?" He asks.
"Yeah, why?"
"Me and Vin are coming over, just thought I'd let you know before we barge in."
"Oh I'm, yeah sure. I gotta go back to the hospital soon though." I say looking at my watch. It's 7:30 am and the visiting hours start at 8:30am.
"No worries, we'll be there soon." He says hanging up.
I sit up, rubbing my sore eyes. I look up the stairs and feel my heart break all over. I know I have to go up. I have to get changed, I just... I can't though. I know what's waiting for me.
I run my hands through my hair and head to the kitchen. I take some painkillers for my headache and make some coffee.
About 5 minutes later there's a knock on the door. "It's open!" I yell out. The door opens and reveals two guys dressed in their usual black. Rick holding a bag of food and Vinny following behind. "How are you doing?" Rick asks. I just shrug my shoulders. "Not fucking great. Katy's mom is on her way, she'll be here by tomorrow morning. Fuck. I need to call my Mom." I've been so fucking busy and disorientated I haven't even told my own parents what's happened. I grab my phone and head outside to talk to mom. The phone rings a few times until she picks up.
"Hey Sweetie, how are you?" I hear her voice and just feel myself crumble.
"Mom..." is all I can get out.
"Chris, what's going on? Are you okay" her voice filled with worry.
"Mom, Katy's in the hospital. She.... she..." i try to get it out but I just can't.
"Take your time..." she soothes through the phone.
"Mom, she tried to kill herself. She very nearly did. They've put her into an induced coma for a few days... I just... oh god mom what do I do? I love her so much" I cry.
"Oh baby, I'm so sorry this has happened. I don't know what to say... I'm just. So sorry... we're going to come over okay?" She says not in an asking way.
"I have to go up in an hour, I just thought you should know. I needed to hear your voice... oh shit, it hurts so bad..." this goddamn heartbreak feeling just doesn't ease...
"I know sweetheart. But you'll get through this okay? You just let us know what we can do, when you need us and we'll always be there okay?" She says soothingly again.
"I will Mom, thank you... I'm sorry I didn't call earlier..." I apologise.
"Don't even Chris... You don't have to apologise for anything. We love you and Katy and we are here when you need us."

We finish talking and I walk back inside. The foods on the table and the guys are gone.
"Guys?" I call out. Nothing. "Rick? Vin?" I call out again. I look up the stairs. My stomach drops at the thought of going up.
I pick up my knees and head up, slowly.
It wasn't until I got to the top that I hear muffled voices coming from our room.
"Guys?" I call out again feeling my heart thumping as I get closer.
"Hey, we're in here." I hear Vinny call out.