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*Indigo

We lost our baby.
We lost our baby.
WE LOST OUR BABY!!

Tonight was the worst. My head is beating, I can't stop crying and Mari won't talk to me.

I didn't know. I leave my phone in the car so I won't be distracted at work. I didn't know. The pain that we both are feeling is unreal right now. Neither of us has yet to stop crying. I wanted to hug her so bad but I don't know how she's going to react. I thought about it for a minute and I decided to do it. I got off the chair and started walking to her. She turned her head and looked at me.

"Please don't..." she said with tears still coming down her face

"Mari please..." I begged with tears rolling down my face

Her mouth was telling me one thing but her eyes was telling me that she needed me. I walked up to her and I hugged her. Soon as I hugged her I felt her body shaking and I felt my shirt become wet. She lifted her hand and pulled me closer by my shirt. We needed each other right now.

"I needed you Indigo..." she said into my chest

"I know baby. I could've had my phone on me. It was in the car. I didn't know..." I said rubbing her back

"Where's your phone now??" She asked looking up at me

"My phone is in the car at the warehouse..." I said looking at her

"I told you I needed you to stay home..." she said

"I know baby and I'm sorry I didn't stay..." I said as a tear ran down my face

She didn't say anything back. She just held onto me and cried. We both cried. This was supposed to be something good for us and it was just taking away. This shit really hurts man! I was looking forward to us building and having a family. It just sucks.

After a while I stop hearing sniffing and I heard her softly snoring. I continued holding her because I didn't want to let her go. I held her all night, I couldn't sleep at all. The only way she was sleep was because of the medication. As I said I couldn't sleep so I was just laying there drowning in my own thoughts. The tears started again. I was hurt. I heard Mari phone ringing. I lifted up and grabbed her phone. It was T, I pressed the green button and put the phone up to my ear.

"Hello..." I said softly

"Hey, I was checking y'all..." she said

"Mari is sleep. I'm still up, can't sleep..." I said wiping my eyes

"You alright??" She asked asked

"Honestly I don't think so. I was looking forward to having a family with the woman I love. We were happy to be parents. It just sucks how it was taken away from us..." I said as tears formed in my eyes

"Yeah we were all looking forward. But maybe you guys want ready. Maybe y'all still have unfinished business you need to take care of. Then y'all will be able to move on and build a family..." she said

"What unfinished business? We left all that drama and shit when we moved..." I said

"You never know Indigo..." she said

"I don't know bro..." I said rubbing my hand through my hair

"We'll talk about this some other time. Get some sleep, I'll see y'all in the morning..." she said

"Night..." I said before hanging up

I closed her phone down and sat it back down. I sat up all night just thinking. My mind was on one all night. I wasn't even thinking about sleep.
After I while I saw the sun coming up. I looked at Mari's phone and it was 6 something. I unlocked her phone and called T.