Pain & Pleasure 2: Nial Lial (COMPLETED)

Chapter 19

I decided to go to yza's place alone even if it's late buti nalang at may duplicate key ako ng apartment nya at pumasok dito.

Nakita ko sya sa kanyang higaan at natutulog. Siguro dahil sa sobrang pagod at nakatulog nalang syang hindi pa nag papalit ng kanyang suot.

I approached her and stare while she was sleeping. I miss her. I gently kiss her shoulder to neck... but i wake up her.

"N-niel?" Paglinaw nya at inayos ang pagkakahiga nya mula sa naka talikod hanggang sa humarap saakin.

"Yza.."

"Bakit ka nandito? Madilim na ah"

"I don't care" i calmly. I hold her hand rub it. She just looked at me while I was doing this maybe he was questioning herself why I caressed his hand and brought it close to my face.

"Uhmm"

"Are you mad at me?" I ask and she look it in to my eyes

"Im very mad at you"

"I'm sorry"

"Get out" i was disappointed at myself for what i did but the way yza look at me i feel so ashamed.

"I-i... yza-" tinanggal nito ang kanyang kamay nya sa pagkakahawak ko at tumayo.

"Wala akong pake sa sasabihin mo pero ang akin lang lumayas ka na at wag ka na magpakita saakin" i deserve this. I deserve her words kahit na alam kong masakit ito. Humarap ako sakanya habang nagsasalita ito. I can see her eyes tearing down to her face and I can't let this happen to her again.

"Yza listen to me i explain-"

"Explain for what? Nasaktan mo na ako, nasabihan mo na akong malandi sa maraming tao, pinahiya mo na ako ano pang gusto mong i-explain? Yun naman yung korte mo diba? Oo alam kong malandi ako pero alam ko kung saan ko gagamitin ang flirty side ko. Magalaw mo na ako. Ano pang gusto mong gawin mo sakin? Siraan ako? Go. I will stay silence. Nagawa mo na yung gusto mo"

"No, not yet"

"What else do you want!!??"

"I want you to be my girlfriend!!" I breath and calm "i know i break your trust, I know I'm no longer the person you'll need anymore and i never bring back that again." I look at her in her eyes and stare "I just want to say that I have liked you for a long time. I would like to confess to you but something bothers me and I couldn't tell you immediately. and I didn't know that you and aaron had a plan for this shits. Funny but I was not careful with what I thought of you. Sorry for not being gentle" I sighed.

"If i were ask you for the last time before i fly to china. Can you forgive me for what I did?" There was silence for a few minutes but she still did not speak to my question. I nodded to finalize.

"It's ok with me if you can't forgive me anymore, I'll understand" i response. "Well, i guess this is the end for the two of us. Goodbye yza" i added and leave.

I walk out of yza's room and ride a car. I couldn't control the pain so I got lost in the car and cried in anger. I call my stuff for some business.

"Pack my things, I'm going to China tomorrow" i call.

"Yes sir" he response and drop the phone call. I leave at yza's place and go home to take care of things for me to leave tomorrow.

I feel sorry to myself. I apologize yza but i guess this is the best way to you to recover and live happily without me.

Yza POV

D-did he likes me? Fuck you're so stupid yza! Narito pa rin ako sa sulok ng aking kwarto, umiiyak na parang wala nang bukas. Ngayon ko narealize ang mga pagkakamali ko.

"Will you forgive me?"

Shit, lagi nalang yun ang bumabalik sa isipan ko. Mahal ko si niel ngunit hindi ko nagawang sagutin ang kanyang tanong

"It's ok with me if you can't forgive me anymore, I'll understand"

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nag stock up sa tinatayuan ko pero hindi ko rin syang kayang sagutin. I traumatized.

"i guess this is the end for the two of us"

For real? This is will be the end for the two of us? I sigh and stopped crying. I don't know what to do next but i want to stop and focus to my mom.

The next morning i was with aaron. Eating some lunch At wala akong ganang kainin ang pagkaing nasa lamesa.

"Don't play your food, eat it" i sigh and look away

"You can eat mine. Wala akong ganang kumain" i said

"Really? Ok. Hey, ok ka lang ba? Dahil na naman siguro kagabi right?" He ask

"Hindi lang yun" i get my water and drink it

"Hmm i get it. Kay niel? Pinuntahan ka nga pala nya kaninang madaling araw. By the way, wala na si niel dito sa pilipinas" and i look at him immediately habang nakanoot ang ang aking kilay. Kahit tanungin kong nasaan sya alam ko naman din na nasa tsina na sya

"I don't know why but i think he is such in a hurry kanina. 2 hours ago nang umalis na sya" I'm still unaware of what's happening right now because of what happened last night. Still fresh for me. Ngayon na wala na si niel dito sa pilipinas forget about that yza!!

Im in my office at napapatulala ako ng wala sa oras. Wala ako sa wisyo mag trabaho ng maayos. Feeling ko mas lamang pa ang tunganga ko kaysa sa trabaho. Arrgghh focus yza you have to work. I tap my face and sigh

"Are you ok Ms. Ordaneza?" My coworker ask.

"I-im fine. Sorry to bother you"

"Ok lang sakin. Tapos ko na rin naman yung trabaho ko"

"Your day off tomorrow?" I ask

"Hmm nah. It's not time for me to take a day off. Maybe next week i guess"

"Hmm i see. How lucky you are"

"Sira! Gawa na rin siguro ng break up to kaya naging busy ako this month. Hindi na rin masama, nakabuti pa nga ito sakin" and she give me a successful smile and i smile back. As what i see she looks happy? And contented for what she have right now. These day hindi ko na rin sya nakikitang stress sa trabaho nya.

Siguro kung mag mo-move on ako sa mga nangyari pati na rin kay niel magiging maayos na ulit ang work ko.

That's how you should do yza. Forget niel in your life.