I can't say your name

Cap. 15

Brett: "And what happened next?"

Eddy: "The mission went perfectly fine"

Brett: "That's all?"

Eddy: "Yeah? We are not in movies in which people face tons of trouble and complete the mission on the last second before the bomb explodes!"

Brett: "Excuse me, Mr. Secret agent, for assuming a more fascinating finale for your story"

Eddy: "I'm sorry to disappoint you, but this is all: Mrs. Brown helped us bring people on our side and, after ten months, we attacked the base. All the masters were secured to justice and the people we saved received psychological support"

Brett: "And does the resistance still exist?"

Eddy: "Kind of. Nat found other bases around the country and even abroad. But they can handle this without me"

Brett: "And Nat? Why did you have to make that little theatre back in the cemetery?"

Eddy: "Would you have believed Nat if she had told you the truth?"

Brett: "Probably not..."

Meanwhile, the stained window had turned dark. Eddy laid down next to Brett, exhausted from the long tale, and pulled the duvet over them to get some good sleep. It was too late to head home now, and there his love was safe, even without agents monitoring him 24/7.

Brett: "So I spoke with an empty grave all this time?"

Eddy: "Yes..."

Brett: "And I have a badge in my leg?"

Eddy: "Yes..."

Brett: "And I have a lethal microchip on my lung?"

Eddy: "Yes, but don't worry: we will take care of it soon"

Brett: "And my parents are not who they want me to believe they are?"

Eddy: "Yes, and they are in prison now...can you stop it please? I'm pretty tired!"

He said tossing his tie on the floor

Brett: "One last thing"

Eddy: "Sure..."

Brett: "I never told you what I would have liked to tell you that last night..."

Eddy lifted himself till he was sitting and looked down at Brett. Brett raised his body and took a hold of Eddy's hands.

Brett: "I would have told you that I love you, with all my heart; that you are my whole fucking life, and that I cannot live without you. I've loved you from the first day my eyes landed on those beautiful features of yours at math tutoring. I've been falling for you every day you said 'hello' showing your adorable crooked teeth. I've been falling for you every time you lifted your violin and played, even the fly of the bumblebee. I've been falling for you every time you teased me. I've been falling for you every time you hugged me or our hands brushed. I will never stop loving you for all my lifetime and I am the luckiest person on earth to have found a friend like you"

And this time it was not something his mind was saying to itself: it was his voice.

Eddy: "Well...even if I think I've been pretty clear with my story, I will never get tired of repeating it: I love you Brett Yang"

Brett: "May I think of some inappropriate use of this bed right now Mr. Chen?"

Eddy: "Of course..."

Eddy took Brett's head and kissed him passionately till they both forgot their names and touched his little perfect body making him scream in pleasure. And this time it was not a daydream. It was real and screaming beneath him.

Brett: "I can't believe this is true..."

Eddy: "And I can't believe that your cowardness saved us"

Brett: "Excuse me Mr. I-died-one-year-to-stay-away-from-you"

Eddy: "Hey it was to protect you! And, I say many times 'I have bad days', but you have to stop calling me 'Mr. Something'!"

Brett: "And what if I call you Mr. Yang?"

Eddy: "This is the most awkward marriage proposal I've ever heard!"

Brett: "What's wrong?"

Eddy: "First of all we are naked, secondly we are in a secret base and third of all we still have the chip inside us!"

Brett: "So? I was serious! And you look beautiful naked"

Eddy rolled his eyes and contemplated the question for a bit

Eddy: "We still have to remove the chip"

Brett: "After we remove the chip, will you marry me?"

Eddy: "Sure"

He said tilting his head on the pillow to properly kiss the man by his side.

***

Eddy: "Are you afraid?"

Asked Eddy when he saw his boyfriend nervously tapping his foot on the ground

Brett: "The real question is, why are YOU not afraid!"

Eddy: "I've worked for 14 years as a secret agent. I have to see guns pointed at me nearly every day, be sure to be invisible in the most protected buildings of the city, and convince the man I always loved I was dead and left as a ghost for one year. O sure now I am pooping my trousers in fear"

Brett: "Sorry Mr..."

Eddy: "Stop right there! You'll be allowed to call me Mr. when I will have a ring on my finger!"

Brett laughed nervously at the statement and took a deep breath. The nurse knocked on the door, capturing their attention.

Nurse: "Brett Yang? It's your turn"

Brett swallowed and unconsciously reached for Eddy's hand

Nurse: "Don't worry Brett, we've performed this surgery many times after your boyfriend helped us collect target 101 agents"

Brett stood up and sat on the wheelchair. But the moment his ass touched the leather he jumped back up again.

Brett: "Can I remain alone just one minute with 000?"

Nurse: "Sure"

As she left the room Brett closed the door and eyed Eddy.

Eddy: "Is there something wrong?"

Brett: "I was just wondering what would you like to tell me If I would die tomorrow"

Eddy: "My God Brett you are making this an epopee"

Brett: "Answer please!"

Eddy's mouth opened in disbelief at the statement. But the convinced gaze of Brett didn't leave him a second. He rolled the question into his mind and stood up to reach for the shorter man. He kissed his forehead and rubbed his shoulders with his hands.

Eddy: "I would tell you that the most beautiful day of my life was when I met you. Since the first day I got the pleasure to know you I immediately understood you were the one I wanted to spend my life with. That day I also learned that I would have to fight for you and I would do everything I did again if it leads me right to this moment. I love you and I always will, Mr. You-make-my-life-special"

Brett's teary eyes sprinkled with the same light he'd had that famous day.

Nurse: "It's really time to go Brett"

Said the nurse opening the door. Brett sat down in the wheelchair without removing his three black dots from Eddy.

Brett: "I love you...Eddy"

And with this the door closed leaving a shocked Eddy alone with his thoughts: he said it, he finally said it after one year and 2 months he had stopped that name from coming out his mouth.

Eddy: "I love you too...Brett"