Safe place (Markhyuck)

17

While Jeno lies holding his sweet lover after a whole day of massages and love making he sighs. Mark's suggestion was perfect and Jeno can't wait to tell him when he gets back on Sunday. He gently strokes his back and kisses his forehead before closing his eyes and drifting off to sleep.
This doesn't last long when he is woken by a lot of banging, he quickly slides out from under Jaemin and grabs a bat, this being their line of defense against an intruder.

He carefully opens his door looking around, he can't really see much because it is pitch black so he walks slowly being as cautious as he can. When he rounds the back of the couch he trips and falls on his ass, over what he can only assume is a dead body, until it groans anyway. He turns on his phone light and rolls his eyes.
"What the fuck? I thought you were going to be gone until tomorrow?" He whisper yells.
"Plans changed, sorry." He slurs out while trying to sit.
"What the fuck happened? Why are you so drunk? You only drink like this when you are upset." Jeno says softly.
"Because I'm sad. I just want to be loved, and no one loves me." He cries into his hands as he's now sitting against the back of the couch. Jeno sighs as Jaemin comes and sits across from them.
"I'm sorry baby, I know you need sleep." Jaemin smiles.

"His well being is more important than my sleep so let's get him to bed." Jaemin says before he reaches across and pulls one of Mark's hands off his face and holds it.
"I know this probably isn't what you mean but Jeno and I love you and I know that you will someday find the perfect person for you so don't cry ok? Just dust yourself off and keep trying." Jeno and him stand and pull Mark to his feet. They each put an arm over their shoulder and carry him to bed. After taking his shoes off and covering him they exit.
"His heart must be broken, He kind of hinted around about liking someone before so they must have hurt him." Jeno sighs and wraps his arms around Jaemin.
"Come, let's get back to bed. We can talk to him tomorrow." Jaemin nods and kisses him softly.
"I love you, even though our weekend ended just a little too soon I still had an amazing time." Jeno hugs him and pulls him back to bed. They settle in, snuggled into each other not knowing that two of their closest friends are having one of the worst nights they will have.

Haechan has been in bed all day, he can't bring himself to get up. He knows the dishes got left outside and the kitchen needs to be cleaned but his guilt is eating him alive. He has no appetite, some might say he's being dramatic but he knows he hurt Mark and shouldn't have.
He knows he likes Mark a lot and if it wasn't so soon he might even say he loves him. He knows that Mark is a genuine person and he doesn't doubt at all that he means everything he says and has the best intentions. His limitations are what's holding him back. He can't force Mark to live a life like this, he knows it wouldn't be fair and someday Mark would get sick of waiting, he would get sick of him. After hours of staring at the ceiling he finally calls the one person he didn't think he would in this situation.

He picks up after only the second ring.
"Haechan is that you? Is everything ok?" Haechan sniffles and cries a little harder hearing his voice, he didn't realize just how much comfort he could bring him.
"I'm fine, I j-just wanted to hear your voice. I'm sorry for treating you so badly. I've never needed a hug from anyone as much as I do from you right now." Haechan hears some sniffles on the other end.
"I'm coming over, is that ok? I want to see you in person. I need to know you are fine." Haechan nods and smiles through his tears, then quickly realizes he needs to vocalize his response.
"Yes please come." He hangs up and tries to get up to be presentable, it's hard though. He knows he won't mind the mess and the fact that he himself is a mess but he gets up anyway.

He walks to the door, just staring at it while he waits. He has no interest in anything else right now. He sits on the floor and watches out toward the window for headlights and wonders if he dreamed the whole thing. Why is it taking so long? Maybe he don't love him anymore? Maybe it was a trick. When he's just about to give up he sees the lights and starts to stand, a little wobbly on his feet but he gets there. He waits for a knock and looks through the window and immediately starts to cry. He unlocks the door one by one, it's getting harder as his vision is blurry but through his frustrations he finally gets it done. He looks one more time then he opens the door and collapses into his arms.

"Thank you for coming." He gets out between sobs.
"I've missed you so much dad." He says being cradled in his warm embrace.
"Of course I came, you know I would drop everything for you right?" He gently pulls Haechan in and they sit together on the couch, he just sits back and lets Haechan take the lead. He doesn't hesitate to hold him when Haechan drapes himself across his lap to enjoy the warmth he brings. They don't speak much, which is fine with both of them.

"I'm sorry, I was a terrible son and you still came. I don't deserve this." His dad holds him just a little tighter.
"You went through a horrible ordeal and I'm just thankful for everyday that you are healthy." Haechan shakes his head.
"No I'm sorry that I blamed you for moms death when it was my fault." He breaks down again and this time his father does too.
"You did nothing wrong, those horrible monsters are to blame." Haechan shakes as he holds on for dear life.
"I m-miss h-her so much. Every fucking day and I want to get better because I think she would want that but I don't know if I even deserve to live a normal life." He sobs onto his dad's shoulder again.

"You have had a horrible trauma happen to you and you are doing the best you can with the scars it left behind. You had a set back but you have so many people who are pulling for you and that would do anything for you." Haechan wrinkles his brow in question.
"You have that wonderful friend Jeno and his boyfriend and all of the family has been hoping for you to get better." Haechan sits up and puts his elbows on his knees.
"I thought everyone blamed me, when ever we got together I felt like they were talking about how I was a horrible person who couldn't even save his mother." Mr. Lee shakes his head.

"No, you see that is when your mind started to play tricks on you. Everyday I watched you start to get paranoid and the fear started, it was awful to watch so I set you up with the psychiatrist but I think it had progressed too much at that point. Haechan you are so loved, nobody blames you for that horrible act of violence. Most importantly she would never blame you." Haechan lays across the couch with his feet on his dads legs, crying harder than he has in a long time. After wearing himself out he gets off the couch with his dad wondering what's going on.

"Where are you going?"
"I have to clean up the mess, there are dirty dishes everywhere and I've been in bed all day."
He walks into the kitchen with his dad following behind with the intention of helping him. Of course everything is clean and Haechan only feels worse now.
"Goddamnit Mark! Why are you so fucking perfect when I don't fucking deserve it? Fuck." He says sadly as he hits the counter. He turns to see that his dad was listening and can tell he should maybe offer an explanation.

"Come here I want to show you something." He says walking over to his laptop.
"These were all left at my door with random drinks and snacks." His dad frowns in question as he reads them over.
"It was kind of a secret, it's Jeno's cousin. We've been seeing each other, secretly. Only as friends but he told me he wants to date me and I rejected him." His dad sighs and sets the computer down and goes to make some coffee.
"I have all night. Start from the beginning and tell me everything. Obviously he means more to you than you are letting on if you let him in your house before me." He says smirking. Haechan laughs and they sit together all night talking about everything.
Mark, Jeno and Jaemin, his dad's life and his school. When six AM rolls around Haechan offers him his bed, and he takes the guest bed. He wants to sleep where Mark was last since he feels like he messed up so bad he probably won't come around again.
He curls up in the blankets and falls asleep wrapped in Mark's scent.