Safe place (Markhyuck)

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After a late breakfast ate by the five Jeno and Renjun go to the bar to see if they had any surveillance video of the night before and also to try and file a complaint with the police on their behalf. Jaemin stays behind and cooks a few meals for them to heat up when they are hungry and Haechan has been taking care of Mark the whole day.

Mark had went to lay down after complaining of a headache and Haechan got ice for his swelling and painful bruises.
"Jaemin, can you please take Mark to the hospital?" Haechan asks softly, with apparent fear in his voice.
"Is something wrong?" Jaemin asks.
"It's just that it's been hours and he still has a headache and I'm really worried, I just want to make sure it's not serious." Jaemin nods.

"I can take him, do you want to come too?" Haechan shrinks in on himself and shakes his head no.
"I want to, so badly. I want to be normal so I can do these things but I'm not, and I can't." He walks out his front door, stopping at the stairs before sitting on them with a huff. Jaemin walks up and sits beside him, and wraps him in his arms.
"You have done a lot more in the last few months than any of us ever expected. You can't do it all at once." He stares out to the road with a blank expression.
"But this is different, it's important but I know that if I go I will just be a burden to both of you, so please just take him. I'll stay here and wait for Jeno." He gets up and walks back to his room where Mark is laying in the dark.

"Mark." He whispers to see if he's awake, he only gets a hum in response.
"I'm going to have Jaemin take you to the hospital, I'm really worried so can you please just get it checked?" Mark sighs while looking at his lovers sad, concerned face and agrees.
"We can go after Jeno gets back, I don't want you alone right now." This only puts Haechan more on edge.
"I'll be fine, he's on his way. Just go please?" Mark agrees just as Jaemin enters the room to collect him.
After a soft kiss goodbye Haechan watches them leave in a cab, his heart breaks even more knowing he should be with him.

When Jeno and Renjun return to a quiet house it's not too surprising, Jaemin told them what he was doing. Renjun goes to check on Haechan, thinking he is probably asleep but can't find him in his bed. He leaves the room and goes to the guest room, he isn't in there either so he goes back to check the bathroom.

He finds the door closed but unlocked and after knocking and saying the others name, he opens it to find him on the floor with blood coming from multiple wounds on his arms. Renjun knows of his depression and has even heard that he sometimes would cut but he's never witnessed it first hand and it is so hard to see. He wipes at the tears leaking from his eyes almost instantly and falls to his knees.
"Haechan, Haechan wake up! Why?" He says loudly, Jeno hears the stress in his voice and comes running too.

"Fuck. Haechan come on what are you doing? You said you stopped." He looks up to the ceiling, trying to Will back his own tears.
"Is he ok? Why won't he wake?" Renjun asks, shaking. Jeno sighs.
"He's breathing and even though it may look like it, this isn't a lot of blood. He probably just fell asleep crying, he always feels really guilty after doing it."

Renjun gets up and wets a wash cloth and starts to gently wipe his cuts. He is still battling the tears but wants to help any way that he can. Haechan starts stirring and slowly opens his eyes only to close them to hold back his tears. Renjun doesn't say anything, just keeps cleaning him until it's all done. He helps to pull Haechan's shirt off then offers a hand to help him up.

Nobody has spoken, nobody knows what to say. After a few more minutes of silence Haechan speaks sounding more broken than Renjun has ever heard.
"I'm tired of being useless." He says simply before walking out to go sit on his bed, he stares at the floor almost emotionless.
"You are not useless, you're my friend and I wouldn't be here now if it wasn't for you!" Renjun says surprising everyone. He doesn't look at Jeno, he can't.
"Remember that first time I talked to you alone, after the time with Mark?" Haechan nods with his brows furrowed.
"I was drinking, remember?" Haechan nods again taking a shirt that Jeno hands him.

"Before I talked to you that night I was ready to take my life." Jeno backs himself to sit on the bed as his legs can't hold him anymore. Renjun looks down ashamed.
"Your courage inspired me, the way you listened to Mark's words and the way you were trying so hard to overcome. You made me think I could do it too. You made me believe that no matter how broken I felt, that I too could come out on the other side." Haechan has been wiping his tears the whole time while Jeno doesn't even try, he just lets them flow. Haechan stands and they just hold each other like friends do. They stay this way for a long time until Renjun's phone vibrates in his pocket and he sees Jaemin's name, he takes a deep breath and tries to sound as normal as possible.

"Hey, Jaem what's up?" Jaemin sighs.
"I tried calling Haechan and Jeno and neither are answering. Put me on speaker please?" He does it right away and lets him know.
"Anyway, there is a little swelling on the brain and they want to observe him overnight. It's not serious so please Haechan don't worry. I can stay with him and Renjun and Jeno can stay with you." Haechan gasps Jeno is still pale and speechless and Renjun is wondering if this night could get any worse.

"Thanks for calling, we will figure everything out ok? I love you." Renjun says softly.
"I love you, I love you too Jeno." Jaemin whisper shouts in the phone. Jeno tries to say it back but it's too quiet and Renjun just decides to end the call. The silence in the room is deafening until Haechan speaks softly.
"Jeno, take me to the hospital. I want to be with him." This makes Jeno pay attention.
"Haechan he said it was fine, I mean can you? What if? Ugh." Renjun rambles incoherently as he tries to make sure.

"Please guys, I'm tired of being useless and you three need to talk." He says surely. He gets up and throws on a hoody and grabs some sweats for Mark to put on the next day. He is determined to go through with this, he chickened out before but he can't this time.
"Can you give us just a minute?" Jeno asks calmly.
"Yeah, of course." Haechan walks out and leaves them to talk.

"I'm sorry, that you had to find out this way. It wasn't my intention to ever tell you guys but he needed to hear the truth." Jeno stands and walks over to face him. He doesn't say anything just takes him into his arms and holds him close.
"I don't even know what to say, I just don't want to ever let you go." Jeno says in a whisper.
"Don't." Renjun whispers back. They stand there for a while just holding on before Renjun pulls back.
"We will talk, the three of us, but now we need to get him to Mark before he changes his mind." He wipes the lingering tears off Jeno's face, watching more roll down to take their place.
"I love you." Jeno whispers. Renjun nods.
"I love you."