LOVING THE DARK

Chapter 7

"Am I home?"  I whispered, trying to hold anything by my sides.

"Hey hey ssh it's me Connor."  He immediately grabbed my hand.  "How you feeling?"

"I'm so dizzy..."  I groaned.  "Whoa, what is this?  Was I bleeding?"

"Yes Angel, til like 5 minutes ago.  You were even still bleeding when you passed out."  Connor took the towel full of blood.

"Sorry.  You should've not witnessed this."  I held my head.

"No I'm sorry.  I was asking you to come over.  Maybe you're not in your best shape."  He sit holding my hands again.  "Angel, seriously, may I know what are you having right now?"

"What...do you mean?"  I stuttered.

"I've never seen someone bleeding that hard before."  He spoke slowly.  "You have to tell me.  Are you in any specific condition?  Need a little more rest?"

"I'm not...particularly...need any of those."  I tried to convince.

"But you're so weak.  Your body can't contain anything within yourself.  What is it?  May I know?  I might help.  No.  I will help."  He whispered.

"I don't need help on this one Connor.  But thank you for everything today."  I was sitting on his bed now.

"Feel much better?"  Connor stroked my back slowly.

"Oh yeah.  Much better."  I nodded.  "Hey how was the rehearsal?" 

"They stopped it."  He chuckled.

"Eh what?  No!  I wouldn't let that happen.  Is it because of me?"  I rushed to prepare myself to go home, without a ride from Connor because he should continue his work.

"No...it's not completely on you.  They were shocked.  Yeah especially Toby. He never seen such as much blood as today.  But then they left for Starbucks.  Obviously."  Connor rolled his eyes.

"Oh...  I just don't want any of my problems stops you guys from working."  I shook my head.

"Not really though.  We've been trained to keep up the game, always, no matter how less time we have to rehearse."  He answered.

I just smiled at him.  Connor was changing his tee to another one in the bathroom so he left me back and forth.  I felt useless at this point.  Even to stand over a day, I couldn't do it.  Even to make myself happy and excited around them, it already made me bleeding my nose out.  So frustrating.  I wish I had a new body system.

"Let's have a walk."  Connor was ready and steady with his all black clothes.

"Okay."  I nodded.  Trying to curse my own feet to walk.

"I got you."  He held my waist and hand.

"So useless."  I chuckled almost in tears.

"Angel, don't cry...  I still have my own whole power to carry you another million times and will always be okay with that."  He whispered.

"Thank you..."  I mouthed.

He drove me off the house with another car, because I bet Riley and the guys took the one we used earlier.  Then he made me stop in a park.  There were so many people in there, my head started to spin everything around me again.  I hate crowd.  But probably it's not what Connor meant by taking me here.

"Are you trying to find somebody here?"  I finally asked.

"No.  I just want to ask you go out and see what I usually do in my spare time.  First up, this."  He pointed to the crowd.