*billie eilish imagines*

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⚠️TW:Talk of rape⚠️

Hey, my Name is y/n
3 months ago, on my 18th Birthday, my cousin did some things i didnt wanted him to do. He touched me and wispered dirty things in my ear, then He ended up dragging me in my room. Yeah and there He did IT (if you know what i mean)
After i told my mum, she sended me to a therapist. Ngl, my therapist i hot af and cute at the Same time. I took me long time to open up and Talk with her but i did it later. She's a very good therapist, even when we just sat there and she watched my tears Flow down my cheek the last four 'conversations'. Her Name is billie, she said we should call this a 'conversation' because she likes it more in that way

Right now im sitting in this chair, with my eyes watering, I try to hold back my tears

"hey y/n, it's okay when you feel like you have to cry, let it out" billie says taking my Hands in hers

I let my head Fall down and i just cry
"I did it" I say
"you did what?"

"I aborted it" I lifted my head up
"thats great, thats that what you always wanted"
I give her a weak smile

"But that doesn't make me forget what he did"
"I know, it doesn't, nothing is going to make you forgett it" she say

I nod my head
"okay Listen, no preasure but maybe i can help you to at least live with it, you just need to Talk with me"

"I-i cant" I answer weakly
"do you need a hug?"
I just can nod my head

Billie got up, walks around her table and holds her Arms open for me. I get up bury my head in her chest

"shhhh, it's okay, im Here" she says while rubbing gently over my head
I cry loudly in her arms

We stand there for good 20 minutes
"you feel better now?" she asks me
"mhm" I hum in response

We sit down again and she takes my hands in her hands
"remember, no preasure, but do you wanna Talk about it now?" she asks caressing my hand with her thumb

"It's just, I-i feel Used. I feel dirty like i can take 100 showers and i still didnt washed it off where He touched me. Every time I feel someone, it's enough when you tap my shoulder, I get scared. I never wanna see him again" my voice cracked at the end

"I have no one to confort me, I broke up with my girlfriend because i thought she's going to be mad at me even when it's not my fault. I thought she's going to think i cheated" I add

"do you think you will be able to be in a relationship again?" she asks
"I dont know, maybe, but not on a sexual base"

"thats okay"