*billie eilish imagines*

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Part 2 of ⛓️17⛓️
TW: drugs, overdose, suicide

I arrive at home and Set my Keys on the dinner table. I look at the picture of me and y/n on our hawaii trip

Our promise Ring was laying next to the picture. My eyes Start to water, like everytime i look at it

It hurts so much

I go to our bedroom. Her clothes and her side of the bed are still there

I kept some of her drug stuff because why not. Its not going to leave my mind to use it

I mean i know how to do it, I could try. No c'mon billie thats a horrible idea

You have Finneas and mum and dad would miss you a lot. But i would See y/n again

I didnt notice the tears rolling down my cheeks now until one hits the bed covers

I miss her so damn much

Then i get up and walk to 'our' close. I got some of her old stuff and leave to the bathroom, with some peaces of paper and a pencil

I sit down on the floor and begin to write

Dear mum and dad,...

Dear Finneas and Claudia,...

Dear Zoe,...

Dear Drew,...

When I Was done i lay the letters down on the floor. I put on y/n's favoirite hoodie

And started

I take the Thing to stop your blood from flowing through your veins and bind it around my arm

I make it very tight then i took a candle and light it. I take the spoon and put three doses of that stuff on it

Watching it melt Was the most satisfying thing i ever saw. When it was completly melted i filled up the pipe

Damn. Should i really do it? I never did that before. Well for every time theres a First Time, isnt it?

C'mon fuck it

I will do that now

I place the tip in my arm bend and let it go through my skin

It didnt even hurt that much

I go sure im deep enough

And then i did it

I pushed the thick liquids in my blood

My body went warm

I feel the tipsiness take over my brain

It feels good

I start to smile

Soon after my eye lids got heavy

They start to close

Fuck

What did i just do

No

I dont want that anymore

I regret it now

Finneas, mum, dad please for give me

My Vision went dark

And my body went limp

I felt nothing

Numb

Cold

Empty

Soon enough i dont remember anything anymore

My mind went clear

A just too familiar figure appears

"y/n?"

"hey Baby"

Here u go