ZIAM ONE-SHOTS (BOTTOM LIAM)

if i lose myself tonight

Author: musagetes

Link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/997862

Summary:

Liam is probably the very definition of manliness -- he just looks so damn masculine with all that muscle and hair covering his body. Which is why it seems that much more erotic that someone like Liam gets off to being dominated.

It's five months after his breakup with Danielle and Liam is on edge. It's not that he's still mourning his loss, as he got over it within a week, but he's only now understanding the consequences of what it really means to be single.

Basically, he's on his own. Granted, that sort of comes hand in hand with breakup up with someone, but it's different for Liam because he's on his own. It's not something he's particularlily used to, is the problem. The thing is, he needed Danielle. He relied on her more than he probably let on, but with her gone, he's been left to his own devices, and he really doesn't know how to operate like that.

It's just -- Liam is used to having people tell him what to do. It's sort of a requirement, given his line of work, one that he's learned to simply go along with. He prefers it that way. He doesn't argue, nor protest, just accepts what he's told and does it as best as he can. With Danielle, though, it was more than that; she was in control, and Liam was content with being the passive participant.

In retrospect, that could be the exact reason that contributed to their split.

"You're a great guy, Liam," she had said, all sweet if not condescending. "But I need a man."

Which was ironic, really, because Liam vividly remembers her being equally as into his kink as he was. At least, that's how it was at first. When Liam had confided that, despite his muscular image, he wasn't into the whole masculine side of their sex play and would prefer to take on a more passive role and submit to her domination, well, she didn't say no. Not the first time. Or the third, or seventh.

The idea of a guy like Liam lying beneath her, all compliant and submissive as she fucks into him with the dildo strapped across her hips ("Pegging," Liam had explained to her the first time, after he shyly pulled the strap-on out of his bag.) was hard to resist. Erotic to think about, explicitly amazing to experience.

And it was enjoyable, for both of them. Liam wasn't ashamed to admit to his girlfriend that he enjoyed the feeling of being filled up with the toy that she herself would work in and out of him, as her soft hips would snap against his, her hairless thighs rubbing his. And after he would climax he would make sure she wasn't forgotten, going down on her and eating her out.

But in the tenure of those two years, that's pretty much all it was. Liam could count on one hand all the times that he fucked her.

And so she left, and while Liam knows it was due to more than just their sex life, that's the only thing Liam is still hung up on. He got off on being dominated. He liked it and still needs it.

As it is, he's had a six month dry spell and he's more than a little irritable. He could easily pick up a fan and invite her to his bed, but he can't exactly have his way with her, not in the manner in which he'd like. It'd be too risky, sharing with her his kink and asking for her to participate in it with him. Once she's gone, there's no telling she might tell someone else, and Liam would very much rather keep this little embarrassing fact from the public, thanks.

So, because he simply cannot ask for help, he has to do things himself: he bought some dildos.

It's quite different than what Liam is used to, is the problem. Liam doesn't necessarily see himself as gay. He doesn't have anything against guys, it's just a penis itself isn't what gets him off. He likes the dominance that the person wearing the penis displays while he's submissive beneath them, not simply being stuffed full with one.