ZIAM ONE-SHOTS (BOTTOM LIAM)

The Sweet Surrender of Silence (forces me to live alone) 2

"Liam," Connor breathed, not bothering to mask the surprise in his voice.

"Happy anniversary," Liam mumbled nervously as he watched his boyfriend read the Doctor's letter over and over, almost as though he was waiting for some kind of catch.

"You know what this means, don't you?" Connor asked, wanting to make sure this was what the sub really wanted.

Liam nodded his head instantly. "I think I'm ready. Besides, I'll be 18 in less than a year so if I'm ready now, we might as well make the jump."

"Do you- do you not want me to?" Liam asked hesitantly after Connor hadn't responded. Maybe Liam was expecting too much too fast. Who's to say Connor was ready to have a full time sub? The Dom was only 21, maybe he didn't want that kind of responsibility yet.

Or.

Maybe Liam was jumping the gun entirely. What if they weren't even together by the time his birthday rolled around? What if Connor suddenly decided he didn't want Liam anymore? The sub knew he could be a lot sometimes so it would make sense for Connor to grow tired-

"Babe?"

When did it get so hot in here?

"Liam, look at me."

Had his throat always been this dry? God it felt like he was suffocating—

"Liam!"

Confusion clouded Liam's features as he looked up at Connor from where he was kneeling on the floor. "What's going on?"

"You were panicking, babe. I had to get you to calm down somehow," Connor explained with a tinge of guilt in his blue eyes.

"Oh. I-I just don't remember getting on the floor," Liam confessed, which he supposed wasn't completely true. When he really thought about it he could recall feeling a pressure on the back of his neck and a sudden softness under his knees. His head felt a little foggy and the memory was difficult to place. It was almost felt as though he dreamt it, or like he was watching a film that he had missed the beginning of.

"I know, babe. I reset you, so I could get you to relax and listen to me," Connor clarified, but Liam was still having a hard time understanding with his head feeling as though someone had stuffed it full of cotton balls. He felt strange and his stomach churned slightly at the thought of being so unaware of his surroundings. He knew he still had a lot to learn about what it meant to be a sub, but something about this felt different. Felt off.

"Reset me? What does that mean?" Liam asked, hoping Connor would give him a better explanation. Liam was always desperate to learn more about himself. With how judgmental Liam's family was, he felt like Connor was his only source of information that wasn't going to lecture him like the way a doctor would.

Connor rolled his eyes with a fond smile playing on his lips. "I can explain it more later. Right now we need to get back to the matter at hand. You know I'd love it if you went off your suppressants for good, but that means your family would find out about you and our relationship would have to become more involved. Are you ready for that, Liam?"

Liam felt a little thrown with Connor's less than satisfactory explanation, but The Dom never left Liam hanging for long and he was right, going off his suppressants did sound like a more important conversation right now.

"Yes. I'm ready. My parents already know that you're a Dominant so I think that'll lessen the blow of it. It'll give them less to worry about if they know I have someone to take care of me," Liam reasoned.