Mine For A Moment

Not Right Now

Amber POV

Laying back on my bed I thought about everything that had happened today, how well my return had gone, my encounter with Jess and lastly how good it had been to see Randy.

When he asked to be friends I was disappointed but at the same time relieved, right now I'm just not ready to get involved in anything I just want my focus to be on my career.

"Amber you awake?" his voice calls through the door as if on cue. Why is it whenever I think about him he either appears or he messages me?

"Yeah I'm awake what's up?" I ask standing at the other side of the door

"I was hoping we could talk" he says

"We already talked" I say "what else is there to say?"

"Amber I really don't want to do this through the door" he sighs "please just let me in"

"Randy I don't know if that's a good idea" I sigh

"I'm not going to try anything" he says "I promise"

Sighing I open the door and he greets me with a soft smile that makes my heart skip a beat. He's in a t shirt and shorts and he looks good, really good. I step aside and let him enter the room, he walks over to the dressing table and perches on it motioning for me to sit opposite him on the bed.

"I'm just going to spit this out becuase if don't say it I never will" he says rubbing his neck "I've missed you, you're all I've thought about since you left and I'm hoping that you will be willing to still have that date with me"

"Ok I'm going to be honest with you and you might not like it" I sigh "I would be lying if I said I hadn't missed you becuase I have but right now I'm not looking to get into anything"

"I understand" he says "I wish I'd never agreed to play that stupid game that night, I swear Amber I wanted it to be you that came in the room"

"You did?" I ask feigning suprise

"Yeah you have no idea how badly I wanted to kiss you" he says "I still do"

"You did kiss me" I smile

"What?" He asks looking shocked

"When we went for coffee remember?" I say

"Oh that doesn't count" he laughs "I scared the crap out of you"

"But it was a kiss nonetheless" I smile

Randy POV

As Amber smiles I find myself smiling with her, it had been so long since we had talked or seen each other but it felt good to be around her again.

Things go quiet and I find myself looking at the floor, when I look I see her walking towards me, without saying a word she wraps her arms around my neck and holds me close. I tentatively wrap may arms around her placing one hand on the small of her back and one on the back of her head.

"I really did miss you" she says "and I'm sorry for taking so long to reply to your messages"

"You replied that's all that matters" I say "and I missed you too"

As we hold each other I get the strange feeling like I've held her this way before, but I know that's not possible. The only other time I've held her was when I suprised her that day but it wasn't like this.

She moves back from me slightly and cups my cheek "I never got the chance to say this before but you're a good man Randy, you showed me that much at least"

I smile and turn my head to place a kiss on the palm of her hand but as I do so I get this instant feeling of deja vu. Like this has happened before even though I know it hasn't. Last time was that night and that was with Jess, unless......

"Amber can I ask you something?" I ask

"Sure" she says stepping back from me

"Was it Jess in the room with me that night or was it someone else?" I ask

"What?" She asks eyes wide

"Who was in the room with me that night?" I ask again "who did I kiss?"

"You already know the answer" she says turning away

"Do I?" I ask "becuase I'm starting to think I was lied to"

"Why would you think that?" She asks

"Becuase as soon as you touched my face just then I knew" I say "I knew it was you and not her"

She turns to look at me and I can see the tears sparkling in her eyes and I know I'm right.

"Yes it was me" she says "but it doesn't matter now"

"It does matter, baby it matters so much" I say taking her face in my hands "that kiss was amazing, and for so long I've hated myself for thinking that becuase I felt like I had betrayed you"

"It...it was?" She stammers

"Yeah it was" I smile before leaning down and pressing my lips against hers, I'm expecting her to push me away but instead she kisses me back.

"Randy" she says breaking the kiss "I'm sorry I'm not ready for this, not right now"

"That's alright there's no rush" I say

"Lets start over as friends and we'll see where we go from there" she says

"Sounds good to me" I smile "you need to get some rest, I'll see you tomorrow" I say kissing her forehead before leaving the room.