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tri.nit.y Bye LA getting tf up outta here👋🏼👋🏼
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alanaforever Cutieeee💕
colormenae Mexicooooo 🇲🇽
zonnique It's littt 🔥
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I looked out the window of my dad's private jet as we finally were up into the clouds on our way to Mexico. I felt such a relief about being away from LA and all the drama that is there. Even though I'm not escaping much because Rakim is literally about to be back in the same space as me. I've gone almost an entire month without speaking to him. Some people would say it's immature and I should have an adult conversation with him. I don't have any words for that nigga. I wish he didn't exist and that I didn't fight so hard for him to come to Mexico. This whole plan has backfired on me.
"Why you sitting back her by yourself?" I look away from the window to see Tiny sitting across from me.
"Just wanna be alone." I said softly.
"Well you know I'm not gonna leave you alone until you tell me something." Tiny said making me smile a little bit.
She'd sit here all day if she has to. So instead of fighting it, I just paused my music and thought about what I was going to tell her.
"I'm just tired of feeling played.." I say shaking my head.
"Oh this is about Rakim.." She said nodding. "Don't let him make you sad. I know that's my nephew, but he's also a nigga. We don't love these niggas." Tiny said making me laugh softly.
"I do love him.. That's the hard part about it all." I say softly. "I want him to be the perfect guy for me, so I don't have to find anyone better." I admit.
Tiny looks at me and squints. "How old are you?" She asked.
"I'm eighteen." I tell her.
"You need to be focused on school and your future. Not trying to mend a relationship with someone who doesn't even want to help you fix it." Tiny said. "Because I guarantee you in the time you haven't called him, he hasn't called you or texted you either.." She said making me nod my head.
"No.. He hasn't and that makes me even more sad."
"Aw don't be sad, I don't want you to be sad. We going to Mexico." Tiny said clapping. "Cheer up."
"Yay." I say waving my arms miserably.
"That's it." She said as she walked back to her seat.
It is sad that I don't have my mom with me on this trip to try to talk to me. But, I have Tiny and my sisters, that's good enough. I still haven't told my dad any of this, so hopefully Tiny keeps this conversation between us a secret because I don't want this trip to get messed up, and it being my fault. I just want to have a good time, but I know it's not gonna be that easy.
