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Rakim and I did what lovers do last night and honestly I feel kind of good about it. We both said that it was completely casual and that there were no feelings but I am happy with the choice I made. I'm not worried about what my sisters think or if Jordan finds out because we're not even together. I'm getting older now and I have to start making choices that make me happy.
Today I am going house hunting and my mom is coming with me. She knows more about houses and finding a place to live than me. So, I think her coming with me was the best decision. I just want my own space with me and Xia so that we can both me comfortable.
"This is a three bedroom, 2 bathroom house and it has a basement and an attic. It also has walk in closets in all the bedrooms!" My realtor Kelsie said as we walked around the house.
"I like it but the kitchen is a little too big." I say softly.
"Yeah she doesn't cook like that." My mom exposed me.
Kelsie laughed and nodded her head. "Okay! We have this half of the kitchen that can be made into a dining room area or a bar-"
"She's 18 she doesn't need a bar!" My mom interrupted.
"Yeah okay." I roll my eyes. "Anyways, I definitely like the idea of making this a dining room and I need the living room to be not too big so I don't lose my child also these side doors are a problem because Xia will escape." I laugh softly.
"Can I see the attic?" Mama asked.
Kelsie and my mom walked off it the attic and my phone started ringing. I looked at the caller ID to see that it was Jordan. I declined the call, but he called again so I answered it only because he has Xia ans something could've been wrong.
"What's up? I'm busy!" I say softly.
"I need to talk to you. I don't like this, not talking to you! When can I see you?" Jordan asked.
"You never wanted to talk before what changed?" I ask with an attitude.
Jordan sighed deeply, "I didn't call to argue. I just want to say sorry and hear your voice." He said. "How about we get massages and facials tonight?" He asked making me smile softly.
I catch myself and quickly wipe my smile off. "Massages and facial? What do I look like to you, a mom?" I ask playfully. "That does sound nice." I say chuckling.
"I'll pick you up tonight at eight." Jordan said chuckling. "And trinity,"
"Yes Jordan?" I answer rolling my eyes.
"I love you."
"Love you." I say biting my lip.
I hang up the phone and make my way to the staircase where my mom and Kelsie where walking down. Honestly I wasn't even thinking about house hunting anymore, just getting this massage and talking to Jordan. Because it does feel a little weird being mad at him and it's not a good feeling. It's not like rakim where I can go months without talking to him. Jordan is one of my good friends so I am sad that we're not on speaking terms right now.
